Sunday, May 16, 2010

se7en..... only i look alot older

Two thumbs up for the curious case of benjamin button!

It's yet another one of those movies that one will never be tired of watching. Every time I watch it, there is always new takeaways. I love these kind of movies- so heartwarming!

Two thumbs up for Brad Pitt's wonderful acting and his forever so hot wholesomeness...

(:

Okay study math

Monday, April 12, 2010

Today

No matter how late i will have to stay up to finish studying for math class test tmr and also finishing econs tutorial, i must do this now.

Today, I feel humane again. Today, I cleansed my soul. Today, I was touched. It's not that I am going to grumble about why is life so unfair.

Where big supermarkets sell their goods at such high prices, earning money by the bulk, vagabonds are milling around in nooks and creaks, standing strong for their survival, selling their goods at such low prices, people wonder they actually do earn at all.
Then what is economics for... yet i guess, one is an exception, that's why in the real world, ceteris paribus does not exist. But there are so many of these one persons scattered all around this small red dot. And heck, he is BLIND.

It's really not about what the goods are. It's that strand of hope hanging there that I see, fighting for survival, withstanding heat and humidity.
SO to people who complain about not having aircon for just one minute, shame on you.
It's that determination to work for what little he can earn that touched me. It is that insistent character in him to return changes despite the fact that we as customers deliberately want to give him more. That integrity, that honesty...... That frustration i see in him standing and sitting, fumbling restlessly, perpetually holding on to that pathetic bag of tissues, with that same old and yellowed ziplock bag containing all the medication like Vicks... and that same old bag that used to contain all the delightful buscuits... and all that is left now is a bagful of mentos... before one kind soul walk past and buy just that small pack of tissue.
just because nobody gave a thought about buying those things....... well at least he'd have survived after all these years. Since the first time i saw him there- 5 years ago already. Goodness knows how long he had been there.

And then he is so polite. As compared to the aunty who sold me mentos a few hours ago at $1, he spoke to me like I am a customer buying Prada. For $0.80 at that.

I guess i am still cowardly... I stood there for a long long time, across the long aisle, waiting for the time nobody was there. Then i approached him. Although $4 may not seem like a lot, and it's probably half a meal for us, it means alot to him. And i am glad I was able to help him pull through another day.

Damn the world.

Oh there is just so much we can learn from these people.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Blast!

Today's JTS was quite cool! love the hilarious seniors (:
Hope all the food were gone!

i realised i should post now as the post before this is a little bit dirty for the eyes.... SIGH......... tons of work to do and econs lecture test tmr... DIES.

I think i still haven't crossed my heart barrier. Going will still be a drag as long as I don't cross that barrier- a wall more likely... It's really not you. It's about me now. And when a heart barrier gets built, it is really really hard for me to blast it down... since heart barriers are so rare. And now there are 2. How cool -.- the last one that ended took at least 2 years. Wonder how long this will be.

I don't think u even know that I am avoiding you...................................SIGH someone save me?

Sunday, April 4, 2010

A load of expletives

What can I say... Out of the mere fact that u r related to me, I will not shout out that whole lot to u. But that doesnt mean I will not get back at you for doing that to me.

Sometimes adults just don't understand technology. Or at least they forgot that a person who is near 20 can fully understand what is supposedly called " adult language"

Fuck you.

Monday, March 29, 2010

I know...

I can see that distress in your eyes. Always lingering there whenever your eyes travel to that painful spot just above my shoulders.

But u have got to relax. It isn't my fault that I got it. Neither is it your fault. And I am not as badly hit as you perceived me to be... So u don't be too.....

This is part and parcel of life. There isn't any denial in that... Life is never fair. The cleverest person looks as pretty as a toad and the httest person probably has brains the size of peanuts.
What matters most is whether I take it to heart or not, whether I care about what Thera think of me or not, whether i live life as I want it, to the fullest or not.

I know your concern for me about the future is really causig you sleepless nights. But as I have said, whoever who loves me will accept my everythig including this little thing.

For your everlasting awesomness, I salute you.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Yo Ho Yo Ho

hehehehehehehe... today was a good day!

Breakfast + Lunch + Dinner = Brunchner = <3

It's buffet! What can u expect!

Johnny Depp pwns. This holidays's been a rather exciting adventure for me (: In my imagination, that is. Watching movies after movies in my head, swishing and ducking... aye aye aye.

To become a lucid dreamer..
well there's no need.. i'm one (:

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

days are passing by

For my fellow friends out there who are feeling as depressed and sad as I am now over school work or some school setbacks/rejections, here are some tips for the destresserinyou!

PLAY the piano! Or something that can let the feeling out.

And then tell someone.

A while ago when we were going for a lesson discussing intensely about something, some one commented that we are damn close (: which is a good thing isn't it!

Well, at least I had some privacy... at least they didn't know.. that's one thing i can be grateful for out of this mess...

haze.......

those memories again......

Monday, March 1, 2010

HBL is quite a waste of time. And the content's quite crap. CRAP.

Life's back to norm i guess... which is a good thing. So far so good, life as it is, only thing that's short is the cash i should have gotten :( haha shall go and zui zai huan zai (:

meantime, econs and pw hbl sucks! Like how to do man!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Ahh

4 nights straight of performance, 2 times a day from monday to thursday............ like machine like that... where got time to do all the homework!! *dies*

"if you can survive 2 weeks in JC, you can survive 4 years in ny"

haha i like that sentence (:

Ouch! it's hurting like never before! What's happening? May miracles really happen.

Life is so __________ now. And mum's just dragged me to buy assessment books already. Please lor! i'm like one of the more mugger person in my class for these 2 weeks lo! :O surprising eh! hahahahahahha

THE MUGGER IN ME!

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Ahhhhh

No one understands how I really feel...
No one understands how much pain I have to endure every single time...
No one understands the loneliness I feel on this long journey...
And no one tries to elevate me from my dampened feelings all the time

So much for emo-ing... well, that's how I felt a few days ago, and now, HAPPY CNY! I hope everyone gets many red packets (: while i rot in my house wishing i could go red packet collecting too.

Okay, 2 more days of fun, and the mugger in me will come out! TRUST ME! hahahahahahahahaha nights people!