Today

No matter how late i will have to stay up to finish studying for math class test tmr and also finishing econs tutorial, i must do this now.

Today, I feel humane again. Today, I cleansed my soul. Today, I was touched. It's not that I am going to grumble about why is life so unfair.

Where big supermarkets sell their goods at such high prices, earning money by the bulk, vagabonds are milling around in nooks and creaks, standing strong for their survival, selling their goods at such low prices, people wonder they actually do earn at all.
Then what is economics for... yet i guess, one is an exception, that's why in the real world, ceteris paribus does not exist. But there are so many of these one persons scattered all around this small red dot. And heck, he is BLIND.

It's really not about what the goods are. It's that strand of hope hanging there that I see, fighting for survival, withstanding heat and humidity.
SO to people who complain about not having aircon for just one minute, shame on you.
It's that determination to work for what little he can earn that touched me. It is that insistent character in him to return changes despite the fact that we as customers deliberately want to give him more. That integrity, that honesty...... That frustration i see in him standing and sitting, fumbling restlessly, perpetually holding on to that pathetic bag of tissues, with that same old and yellowed ziplock bag containing all the medication like Vicks... and that same old bag that used to contain all the delightful buscuits... and all that is left now is a bagful of mentos... before one kind soul walk past and buy just that small pack of tissue.
just because nobody gave a thought about buying those things....... well at least he'd have survived after all these years. Since the first time i saw him there- 5 years ago already. Goodness knows how long he had been there.

And then he is so polite. As compared to the aunty who sold me mentos a few hours ago at $1, he spoke to me like I am a customer buying Prada. For $0.80 at that.

I guess i am still cowardly... I stood there for a long long time, across the long aisle, waiting for the time nobody was there. Then i approached him. Although $4 may not seem like a lot, and it's probably half a meal for us, it means alot to him. And i am glad I was able to help him pull through another day.

Damn the world.

Oh there is just so much we can learn from these people.

Blast!

Today's JTS was quite cool! love the hilarious seniors (:
Hope all the food were gone!

i realised i should post now as the post before this is a little bit dirty for the eyes.... SIGH......... tons of work to do and econs lecture test tmr... DIES.

I think i still haven't crossed my heart barrier. Going will still be a drag as long as I don't cross that barrier- a wall more likely... It's really not you. It's about me now. And when a heart barrier gets built, it is really really hard for me to blast it down... since heart barriers are so rare. And now there are 2. How cool -.- the last one that ended took at least 2 years. Wonder how long this will be.

I don't think u even know that I am avoiding you...................................SIGH someone save me?

A load of expletives

What can I say... Out of the mere fact that u r related to me, I will not shout out that whole lot to u. But that doesnt mean I will not get back at you for doing that to me.

Sometimes adults just don't understand technology. Or at least they forgot that a person who is near 20 can fully understand what is supposedly called " adult language"

Fuck you.