Life as it is

I'm sure no one comes here now, and I'm also sure i have posted more than enough (and definitely more) spammage of my recent otaku fetish.

I like it how some readings just hit you like tidal waves, clearing everything in its path- sort of like a cleansing of our heats and our souls. Don't get me wrong, i'm not going to start some kind of preaching or anything (i despise that). But the warm and fuzzy feeling is always there, like the tinkling of wind chimes in the soft cool breeze of the night (at the height i am staying at).

What i am getting at is basically this: I recently read a blogpost about the person's real emotions about her life in an elite JC, and it struck me with that warm and fuzzy feeling. Not because it allowed me to return to the memories and friendships i had forged in my those-two-years, but because i too, can relate very well to her feelings.

There isn't any point in reiterating what she mentioned in my blog, but her post evoked some feelings in me too.

If she can see this, I want to tell her that not only does results not matter, what course you take in the future doesn't matter as well. After all, one only knows what one really wants to do from 30-40 years old. And we are only going to step out of the first quarter of our lives.

I'm waiting for spain vs france now…

okay back to topic, i'm currently going to study a course in a local uni that
1) i have never thought of taking because
2) I will have to study all three sciences all over again. Also,
3) I had never thought, and will never as well, go in to this branch of profession even after I do graduate.

Then what am I doing it for? To the mass public who asks me (if i even do get to point 3), i'll always say it's for my mother.
My dreams and passion lie in places where till now, still spark doubt and uncertainty when spoken. YES it is the arts. I want to pursue a career for music and I had all planned out roughly what I would do from JC2. I researched for all the universities with music courses that interests me and I had even done all the necessary preparations like SATS and what not.
Then my mother told me it would be better if i would get a normal degree first. As quoted, she said that having a normal degree allows you to fall back unto something even if you do not succeed in music.

Indeed, most people will agree with her. In fact, i do agree with her too. To a large extent, she made a hell lot of sense.
And as proven also, the path of a musician, no matter a performer, composer or conductor or any other, is never easy. While in a normal profession, all you need to survive is to get a good degree (like Hons or Masters- would be a bonus), start from the bottom, work your life out, expand your circle through your work, maybe bootlick the ups (not necessary) and once you get promoted, things would be smoother sailing. Sounds stressful? Wait till you hear about musicians.

For an average say… performer, first, you'll have to learn an instrument. Not just piano or violin. Everyone does that. It won't be easy to shine or just earn a living.
Nowadays, learning an instrument is not enough already. You have to learn at least 2, and master them well.
You have to be of a certain high enough standard once you reach teenage. Failure to do so would see an immediate abyss for your pursue of a music career.
While at that, you will too have to start expanding your circle, making more contacts. By the end of  teenage, if you do not have enough contacts (or rather, not enough contacts that are big and powerful and can support your quest for a musical career), you will never have any stand in the music industry. Then of course in your twenties, you start to up your image and have more contacts with the help of those you found during your teenage years.

Any cut in communication for a break of say, a year or two would render all your hard work useless.

This is how the music industry work. Why would I try to kill myself then? I can only say it all happened during this prime time. Google music quotes and you will be able to find many sayings of music. Music is life itself; music will never die. it is eternal; music is the soul blahblahblah… and it is indeed these sayings that a musician really finds. It is not about anything else. It is about the music in its own entirety.
Sounds like musicians are the slaves of music eh… but i would see it in another way, that musicians can see what music can do. And it is for this reason that I had decided this would be my path.

But the eminent threat i now face is this: Would I have the will and drive to hold on to my music line as I progress through the next 4 years of studying for a normal degree? Would I still be able to hold on to the passion?

The answer I got from some of my friends are for me to continue dreaming and take practical actions. Even if I can't touch my instrument or compose a piece, even listening to music (classical in this case) would help (considering the choice of the music career i want to take). Doing any of that would create that link that I so need to reassure myself that I am still connected to the world of music I hold so dearly to. It would be the fuel to my passion that could die out in no time. All i need is to make the effort.

I cannot really say what will happen in the future as I embark on a new phase in life, but I do hope that some day in the future, I would be sitting in a plushy chair thinking back on my life and say that I have not regretted all that had happened, for without those decisions, I would  not have gotten to where I am today.

HOHOHO i know i just posted a blog post about new anime and manga that i am recently watching or have watched. Now, it's time for MORE HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

1st: Shugo Chara

It is an anime for slightly younger audience than me, since it revolves around kids of 12- 16 years. The elementary school (mainly) to middle school age. It is a story of how children all have eggs in their heart and if despised or doubted, will result in the transformation of these good eggs to bad eggs. In fact, these eggs represent the dreams of the little children and these dreams will be erased as they grow up. In this story, these people in the picture go around cleansing the bad eggs and keeping the dreams of children. In totality, it is a show to tell children to not give up their dreams. The picture shows most of all the main characters.

The female protagonist is the girl in pink (full body shown) called Amu. She is the one who goes around cleansing the bad eggs (X eggs, as in the show) along with the help of the other kids, Tadase, Kukai, Yaya and Nadeshiko. In the story, she has a crush on Tadase even before he knew her. However, she subconsciously fell in love with the story's semi- antagonist, Ikuto, as he keeps appearing in her daily life.

The male semi-antagonist- protagonist is Ikuto, the guy with blue hair and cat ears and is surprisingly good looking. He works for the antagonist of the story, the Easter Company. The company keeps harvesting X eggs to bring out the Embryo, a special egg that grants the person any wish. However, Ikuto didn't want to work for Easter and keeps trying to get away. Unfortunately, he can never get away as he was the stepson of the company's director. His disobedience caused him to be forcefully controlled by the company to do "evil".
He's a typical mysterious kind of guy in any anime which make ppl get head-over-heels with, the guy who does things alone and knows everything. His interruption into Amu's life like suddenly appearing on her bed sleeping and sharing bed with her caused her to inadvertently fall in love with him, although it took her loooong to realise that.

All in all, not a bad anime just looking at ikuto alone :D

2nd: Kaichou wa Maid Sama

This is a relatively new anime/manga that only came out in 2010. It is about a girl who is all fierce and demoness in school, but actually works as a maid waitress in a cafe after school as her part time job to pay off family debts.

The female lead, the girl in the picture (full body), Ayuzawa Misaki, is the first female to become student council pres in her male-dominated school. She works in a maid cafe as it has high pay so she can quickly pay off the family debt her father left them with (and ran away). Because of her dad's running away, she grew a hatred for all men. Through the course of the story, she met the male lead (which i will intro later) who taught her that not all men are bad and she slowly stopped hating men, and found her true love- only to be deterred again when she found out he was from a rich family despite going to a poor school. Furthermore, people of the rich world keep trying to break them apart. BUT I BELIEVE THEY WILL STAND STRONG˜

The male lead, the only guy in the picture, is called Usui Takumi. In the picture he wears glasses, but he usually doesn't wear them outside. He only wears them at home, and he looks CUTE ~~~ in glasses :D :D:D. He is the illegitimate son of his rich mother and some poor japanese. However, he is still related to the rich and powerful family whose base is in UK, and he is still restricted by the limitations of rich people. His love (rather straightforwardly) for Misaki started when he found out about her maid job.

Basically, this story is the typical story of how the rich and the poor can never be together and how the two "star-crossed" lovers overcome it.

This is still an ongoing manga, and I hope it will have a good ending.

So a BIG summary for now as to the manga/ anime i have seen (ranked by the numbers):

1) ONE PIECE (ongoing)
2) FAIRY TAIL (ongoing)
2) DETECTIVE CONAN (ongoing)
3) CHOU SHINRI GENSHOU NOURYOKUSHA NANAKI (complete- manga only)- it's the first ever japanese manga i read. the chinese goes: 超心理現象能力者 
4) PRINCE OF TENNIS (manga ongoing)
5) KAICHOU WA MAID SAMA (manga ongoing)
6) SHUGO CHARA (complete)
7) VAMPIRE KNIGHT (ongoing- i used to like it very very much before the others came about)
8) PHI BRAIN (ongoing)
9) DETECTIVE LOKI (complete)

Yes, there are two 2nd position cos i can't decide which one is better. AND yup, this is basically all so far.

Sore de, Jya na!

It's been SOOOOO long since i last came to my blog, the whole setting's changed already! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Oh well, give me such a looooong holiday and it's what i become. Been doing loads of stuff lately, going shopping in town, going shopping overseas :D heh heh… learning driving, being a teacher, getting consumed by syf, performing again heeheehee.
They are all enjoyable and I had almost totally enjoyed my holidays so far.. but the most enjoyable i'd say is still watching anime! HEEHEEHEE

After a watch-anime hiatus, i'd had began to watch anime again! heehee of course to continue one piece and detective conan AND of course, to start on new anime :D :D :D :D :D

This time i'd started a few more anime.. and my my, they are good too!

1st: FAIRY TAIL

There, a rough picture of the members of Fairy tail, a mage guild.

A little introduction to Fairy Tail, Fairy tail is the name of a (in)famous mage guild, and it tells of the story of the guild members as they continue to meet new quests and stronger opponents, improving their skills for er.. some kind of objective in the end.

The members are namely

- Natsu Dragoneel, the male protagonist in this series, who is a dragon slayer (trained by a fire dragon) and has character somewhat similar to Luffy in One Piece.

- Lucy Heartfilia, the female protagonist, who came from a rich family and shuns it (but the family ended up broke somewhere in the middle), is a stellar mage. She calls on celestial spirits and treats them as NAKAMAs, thus all the spirits under her are loved and love her. She still thinks she isn't as strong, but she totally will become the best stellar mage in the world (not that there are many (and keys) to start with)

-Gray Fullbuster, an ice mage, is the male protagonist secondo. He is a little cold (like not literally heh heh) and a little slow. Somewhat like a Zoro. 

- Erza Scarlet, the most powerful so far out of the four. Together with the three above, they make a team in Fairy Tail.

As of now, Fairy Tail is still in its baby stage, but it is exciting enough, the adventures are not disappointing AND it has cute and hot guys too :D :D :D So i recommend it (after one piece of course)

2nd: Phi Brain

It's quite a new anime. (Not from manga btw)

Phi brain is really a new anime that is out only this year (i think). It features a guy called Daimon Kaito, who is damn good at solving puzzles. He is a genius and along with his other genius friends, Cubic, Gyammon, Ana Gram, Jikugawa, as well as his childhood friend, Nonoha, they solve puzzles with murderous intent. They have just finished their ordeal with POG, some kind of puzzle organisation and has met with a new and worse organisation, the Order of Orpheus. It is not too bad an anime to watch, but it is not as exciting and breathtaking as OP or FT. What i like is the different types of puzzles that the writers come up with in each episode. I look forward to the day they run out of puzzles.. though it is highly impossible.

3rd: Detective Loki (Ragnarok)

This is basically the main cast, but the main guy, Loki is the little boy at the side with a white sleeping thing on his head.

I actually read the manga long long ago. It was just that my sister was clearing her area that I saw this again and I decided to watch the anime. It's about Loki, a trickster god who is transformed into a little boy and exiled into the human world by the antagonist, odin. When it was time to go back to the world of gods (where loki will fight odin and become the new king of gods), he realised he couldn't let go of the human girl, Mayura, and decided to stay on in the human world. It's quite a cute short series, but LOKI LOOKS CUTE IN HIS NORMAL FORM ~~~ kawaiiiii! heeheehee

4th: Prince of Tennis

A story centering around a 12-yr-old boy called Echizen Ryoma, a tennis prodigy, and his fellow high schoolers teammates in the pursuit of national championship in tennis. I've only just started, but as the title suggests, it's basically all about tennis and there won't be any deviation away from tennis.  So the excitement comes from looking at the cute senpais and of course Ryoma, though the story is not too bad too. :D:D:D:D:D:D

Makes me sound like some guy-hungry person lol lol lol… but I totally agree with what my friend said, that she'd only marry manga guys :D HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

That's all for now! JYA NA!