Tired

That's the only word that can conclude the whole of this week.

I'm rather busy (i mean VERY busy) these days cos its like OMG...4 more days to COMPETITION and i'm still not into that mood yet :(

totally screwed up tonight's performance... stupid me :( thought i hit the paigu alrdy.
AND today was really tiring. Not that other days weren't. I mean, when u've got nothing to do (cos obviously your instruments are not available) people ask favours from you, and you oblige cos u would rather NOT sit and rot to death. So there you go running around like mice doing errands for everyone.

AND the most stupid thing i've ever done is to agree to participate in ALL 3 CATEGORIES. wow, i must have thought i was a superwoman. Now i dont even have the time to prac my solo pieces... AREN'T those the MOST IMPORTANT ones?!?!?!?
bloody shit.

and WHEN you're so busy and all head-over-heels alrdy, your section decides to pangseh you when you need them most (moving instruments like TIMPANI) and let you die yourself. What is worse? They're all older than me, and there i go looking after them like their mommy. I SO want to scold them!!! but when i see them, i just can't say it out. YUCKS!! i was so looking forward to that lecture about responsibility i had in mind :( No wonder they wanted an SL for perc.

BUT out of all these, i realise that being a percussionist (THIS IS TOTALLY IN MY POINT OF VIEW, SO NO ONE HAS TO AGREE WITH ME), the most happy times are not during practises or trying out new scores or being with your section and trying to bond.

It's when we move instruments and feel very tired, but accomplished at the same time, and that gratitude for those who are willing to help.
It's when you know you're going to suffer but still do it because its your responsibility, yet enjoying it at the same time because you whole section is with you, occasionally shooting sarcastic or funny remarks/ sentences that makes you feel lively and gets your mind off the tiring process.
It's when after all that, you know you sacrificed the most time in the whole orchestra, but still will not complain because u know that's what we, the percussionist have to do since the 1st day we decide to learn percussion.

Aye, words can't describe how i feel, but its getting late, and i'm getting hungry from all that running and hauling instruments (worse than weights okay), and i have to wake up early tmr.

Wish me luck!