Ahhhhhhhhh

And that whole screwed week of sabbs ended perfectly! at night of course.

Star gazing was so cool! well of course not lying on the field and watch stars twinkle, but really see details of stars/moon! wow. Moon was quite ordinary. My telescope could see as well too.
SATURN! was a great surprise! its the first time i saw saturn "live" (consider it past since it takes ____ light years for light on saturn to reflect to earth) with its rings and Titan (one of saturn's moons) orbiting! i saw titan move!!!! ahh 8screams in excitement* (:

And then ytd was quite exciting too, with all that hubalaba (whatever it means. wait it doesn't mean anything) about a new piece we are working on. Overly exciting and fun! it is over challenging, but at the same time catchy, so when we familiarized with the score, we will more be having fun than worrying about wrong notes/rhythms. that is so cool.

hope to see more!

One week gone

whoa, and it was a whole week of gaming and gaming... only except my computer was spoilt on one day i was being a nice kid on monday.

Besides that, it's hour sand hours of chioning everything, which i think i didn't do well enough because i didn't give enough effort.

okay lame shit. I have no idea why i am describing my boring life (which by th eway is not gg to be so boring soon- june hols) wahahahahahahaha :D okay i am crazy.
seriously, this should teach our teachers a lesson to not giv eus so much homework during sabbs week. Ppl just start poning school just to do homework. Defeats all purpose.

Okay shall go back to gaming now o.O sigh
well at least cosmo is nice

Nothing much

Wow can't imagine a 2-year-old cold war can end with a smile, yet again accidentally. Like how it started accidentally...
I was actually laughing at a joke -.-

ANYWAY, nothing much today... tata go play games

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Think about it.

A tells B stuff about C which is not 100% true because it is only in A's point of view. C knows and doesn't care. One day, C goes around advertising about an event, only to see that B isn't very supportive, despite the fact that B and C were quite good friends.
Won't C then thinks that B has been influenced by A to feel negative about C? Won't C been sad and feel rejected? (even though C may know that B is quite straightforward and doesn't usually say things about someone because B doesn't like that someone)

This is saddening, but thankfully it doesn't occur in my life (: At least not 100% of what i said. Point is that this is a perfect chance for misunderstandings to happen.... and it goes in a vicious cycle all over again.

Okay, ____ concert was not say very good, but commendable for some (:
and from now onwards, I am only going for quality concerts unless otherwise.
AND i will only perform in quality concerts unless i have a bond to some others or i get paid anyway :)

Why is it that I can sense something coming which i have no experience in handling before?
This is scary

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johnny depp is weird.
tim burton is cool.

it is sad for one to be unable to touch one's beloved, least say hug...
sigh.
but it was a very beautiful story...

凄美的故事...

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HO HO HO... welcome to the new attraction......

HATEBOOK! wahahahahaha

it helps in a way though, allowing you to "distress" ? haha... just don't be too specific in pointing out the person. some are quite sad though, and some are just plain silly o.o

but anyway, thanks once again for being so pessimistic (: saved my life.




someone please slap me out of it... before it gets too deep all over again.

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From now onwards, this shall be my title, until i decide to find out why my tagboard is down there.

FINALLY!!! finished that whole pile of homework. But seriously when you have so much stuff to worry about, and worse still, homework stands a high percentage of those worries.\, you tend to just give shit quality work.
Unless you really care about your marks. Then again, thinking about it, this is not a good thing. Not for me at least. Okay, so I did exaggerate a little... no i still care about homework, and so I do give work of certain quality. No doubt about that. BUT, given enough time (which i never will have because i always do last minute work) i think i can do better.

Wheeeeeeeeeeeew, and that is what everyone says, "IF ONLY i had more time....."
*censored*
this part is deleted in claiming that it will bore the readers out and their eye bags will increase by the time they finish reading this part.
Oh its easy! you can easily find any essay about how people like to procrastinate and how there is always enough time without procrastination blahblahblah... AND insert it in the censored part, and viola! you got it!

anyway, i had some incentives to blog a few days ago because i was momentarily touched by something I saw... but, seeing that it's over, and i am not in that mood now, i shall skip it, and never get around blogging abt that few incidents (: yes!

wahahahahahhaha... i feel evil now ;-)
sigh, people always think i can do a good job out of anything i am tasked/volunteered to do...
bleah, such high expectations.

Oh btw, if people knew me enough, they'd have known that i don't go around coughing because some people didn't do something. Sorry if you think it so. And i never did mean it the way u thought it to be. Thanks for hurting my feelings.
Oh yea, and just so you know, I dont wish it to continue, it does not feel good- been there, done that. SO it'd be nice if you didn't put these comments on your blog. Same for me as well, and i do apologise for the previous few posts.

OH MY BLOODY SHIT ASS

NOW I EFFING KNOW WHERE MY TAGBOARD WENT!!!!!!!!

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Personal statement

Just finished writing my personal statement, and i came to read my blog. Wow, and many things coincide. Especially so for being a child psychologist and being optimistic (:

realised that I am not a bad person after all. used to think I am not a very good person, with all that funny problems and such and sometimes not being able to solve all of them. BUT, as the saying goes, _________________________ i dont really know what saying :P wahahaha. Anyway, I thought back to my life changing 4 years, and realised that I have really grown alot. Within these 4 years, i have developed my own character and style, primarily based on the education i received from my mum. THANKS MUMMY!!! <3<3<3

Okay, gotta try to finish one more work before I decide to slack away (though i did most of it by sleeping away the hours already.)

Oh but before that, i want to thank everyone who one way or the other changed my life. (check out more of it in my other blog- will be tributing in that blog soon! whahahahahahaha XD)

Why is this so?

原来大人的世界是那么的可怕的。。。 。。。
有时还查过分寸，变成幼稚了。
似乎比小孩子还幼稚， 因为大人懂事嘛，小孩什么都不知道。。。 。。。

And this is all i have to say: SIGH.

Maybe it is a primary instinct- an instinct that dates back to when we were only apes to cavemen. To inflict harm and pain on others that the tyranny of majority OR the higher authorities deem a pariah. Humans are so masochistic.

I used to listen to my dad or mum talk about their work every time they start on that topic. I used to think they were quite... childish. At least at my age during those time, I felt that the problems described can be solved really really easily. But as we grow up and develop our own characteristics, things become a little more complicated. So things cannot be solved the child way because people do not believe that will work. They must make sure pain was inflicted somewhere somehow befoer things can be settled.

I used to listen to my teachers talk politics/gossip/bitch about the school's system/ management/people etc. I used to think they were spices of life. Like how these things get the world moving and constantly changing to become better or 'better"- the ingredients to spice life up. But as I grow up and get to experience a stimulant real world, did I realize that these are the woes of every spice. These are gunshot piercing spices. So spicy that they are classed hazardous.

And this is the world I am going to enter.

What a bone chilling thought.
And today, i finally got a glimpse of the adult world. Just when I thought my stimulant world was getting too hard to handle, the adult world showed me even more. Is there really a need to do so? Just thinking about it makes me feel tired already. Can I not care about my stimulant world anymore? Or should I just get on with life and get ready for the adult world?

On a side note, thank you so so so so so much, on behalf of everyone. I feel sad for you, regardless whether you feel lousy and vexed or not. Maybe this is training for me to get ready. But really, being the backstage director of my stimulant world, I somewhat understand how grave these matters are. Hope your efforts are appreciated somehow...
But a thought to ponder, you tell us these because you want us to feel for you or you want this news to spread silently or you just want to let it all off?

SIGH. The higher the authority of a person, the more I have a feeling that whatever that person does is for a reason, no matter how shitty or how respectable the reasons are, it will most probably for their own good as well.
Th higher the authority of a person, the more reason for the person to be suspicious about many things.

I don't think I am ready for the adult world yet.

Today is

saturday.

Ah hahahahahahahahahaha -.- lameshit

And so CO@SG is a bit hit website now for CO fans. And then i find myself deviating to that web when i know clearly i have to study for tests -.-
Then again, what can i do man, when people are suffering from post syf depression? :S
Strangely, i don't feel any more bonded with NYCO than i already am before syf. And then people wonder why that is so. I have no idea. Perhaps because i know so many inside outs (like doing stuff others are supposed to do), it seems just funny to feel more bonded? Or perhaps it's because the people i bond with in nyco, i have already 100%, and the others are not so? Or maybe it's because syf doesn't mean as much as some other events to me? Or is it the prospect of the future after syf that makes me so? Hm...

But still, from the depths of my heart, i really love NYCO for the people.

Dang it -.- nothing i do allows me to see my tagboard o.O sucks