Tired

That's the only word that can conclude the whole of this week.

I'm rather busy (i mean VERY busy) these days cos its like OMG...4 more days to COMPETITION and i'm still not into that mood yet :(

totally screwed up tonight's performance... stupid me :( thought i hit the paigu alrdy.
AND today was really tiring. Not that other days weren't. I mean, when u've got nothing to do (cos obviously your instruments are not available) people ask favours from you, and you oblige cos u would rather NOT sit and rot to death. So there you go running around like mice doing errands for everyone.

AND the most stupid thing i've ever done is to agree to participate in ALL 3 CATEGORIES. wow, i must have thought i was a superwoman. Now i dont even have the time to prac my solo pieces... AREN'T those the MOST IMPORTANT ones?!?!?!?
bloody shit.

and WHEN you're so busy and all head-over-heels alrdy, your section decides to pangseh you when you need them most (moving instruments like TIMPANI) and let you die yourself. What is worse? They're all older than me, and there i go looking after them like their mommy. I SO want to scold them!!! but when i see them, i just can't say it out. YUCKS!! i was so looking forward to that lecture about responsibility i had in mind :( No wonder they wanted an SL for perc.

BUT out of all these, i realise that being a percussionist (THIS IS TOTALLY IN MY POINT OF VIEW, SO NO ONE HAS TO AGREE WITH ME), the most happy times are not during practises or trying out new scores or being with your section and trying to bond.

It's when we move instruments and feel very tired, but accomplished at the same time, and that gratitude for those who are willing to help.
It's when you know you're going to suffer but still do it because its your responsibility, yet enjoying it at the same time because you whole section is with you, occasionally shooting sarcastic or funny remarks/ sentences that makes you feel lively and gets your mind off the tiring process.
It's when after all that, you know you sacrificed the most time in the whole orchestra, but still will not complain because u know that's what we, the percussionist have to do since the 1st day we decide to learn percussion.

Aye, words can't describe how i feel, but its getting late, and i'm getting hungry from all that running and hauling instruments (worse than weights okay), and i have to wake up early tmr.

Wish me luck!

days are counting

OH NO!!! its like the 8th day of this ningbo trip, and its the 1st day of winter.
right.
how fun.
Just when we were getting along fine with the weather here, the season decides to play a trick on us and make us suffer withonly a few really thin pieces of clothing, CLIMBING some NEVER ENDING mountain in the blistering rain and howling wind. SO FUN.

But on top of that, i've just seen the email wah wah sent, and realised that its ONLY A MERE 24 DAYS TO COMPETITON. and guess what. Out of 3 of my categories, 2 are less than 50% ready, 1 is less than 75% ready. I am so confident to go on stage already. Thanks everyone, thanks.

On a happier note, i've made 3 new friends, aka my room mates, aka emma, kim and jessica. And of course, bought erm 12 boxes of pocky and peijoy (all under glico) whose flavours can never be found in singapore.

Ahh damn scared damn scared. BUT, as for now i shall cast all my worries away and enjoy the last 6 days of my trip in china.
Finally, i wish all a happy day ahead melting in singapore and work hard!

leavin'

Hi!
Bye!

and in around 13 hours, i'll leave for shanghai, then to ningbo...
Sayonara! my belovoed friends and family! 14 days will pass quite swiftly and quietly and soon i'll be back!

yup, never expected, though i did pray so hard, it probably became a backshot
that my dear teacher will be on the same trip as me o.O srprising, yet not so.
then again, i'll enjoy myself!!!

BYE

Raindrops are dropping on my head

Hm... actually, putting aside all the feuds and grudges,

she's a person with good charateristics too.

At least when she does things, she puts in all her effort
At least she tries
At least she is compliant when needed
At least she volunteers to do things others don't want to
At least she accepts criticism

It just that little- which may become a large extend- thing the sets her apart from being likable isn't it?
aye... the is the world. unfair and unjust.
When people get the first impression, they look immediately at the bad points first. That's cause we're all acustomed to spoting more bad habits that good ones

its like we dont praise ppl for picking up a piece of paper on the ground
we dont praise people for being helpful
we dont praise people for being considerate
we take these for granted

so we pick on little oddities like pointing at people straight in the face
being bossy
flaunting
too giggly
and whatever else faults we can find.

are we humans so pessimistic?
it's time we look from the other side

When dawn comes

EE, haha today's performance was soo sucky :P but still, haha, its a total waste of time.

But thanks julian n derek for sending me such LAME good luck sms (:
D: wish you
J: good luck
(: haha (ahem i tot someone will go today one ?!?!?!?!)
And thanks Denise mum, who's ever so hip and cool for hepling me to get my hair done and force some makeup unto my face (: hahahahaha damn cool can!

OO, some yqp reps celebrated my birthday for me on thurs! TY!! haha and i love the present indirectly for my bear (: NBA FTW!

Pssst: my sis and baby cousin secretly loves me to bits (:
Psssst: i secretly like them, but not to bits (:

Cast your worries away

set aside all the sad things that happened, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! hahaha finally! and i m so excited to get my ic made! Thanks ppl for wishing me a happy birthday! 

listening to soothing music (i suggest brahms symphony no 4 mvt 1 or lord of the rings: return of the king, return of the king or the grey heavens) and watching youtube vids on russell peters is amazingly calming and makes people really happy no matter what! try it, topped off with the free pocky that will appear by your side if you bought it earlier on this afternoon!

Bus at night

And he walks, slowly, bidding his time. Then he chooses his seat- beside a girl of about 15 years, probably going for some lesson.
The bus started, and drive off, towards its destination.
He place his hand across his lap, and then he starts, creeping slowly, inch by inch, towards the girl sitting next to him. And the, the outstretched hand made contact with her thigh. Oblivious, the girl continued to stare off into space, thinking of the day's events. And he decided to stretch even further, carassing on the way.
Then the girl felt a tingling sensation along her left thigh, and looked down, and saw a hand stretched out, touching her thighs. She shifted her sitting position nearer to the window, and continued staring into space.
The tingling sensation was still there. She looked down again, and realised that the hand was still there. taking a peek at the man sitting beside her, he seemed oblivous to the happenings, and was smiling lightly at some distant memories.
The girl shrugged, and put her bag on top of her lap, hoping the hand would go away, but the sensation was still there, and getting nearer to a certain destination. The man, still staring into space, did not seemed bothered at all. The girl became really really uncomfortable, and was really afraid.
Frustrated, the girl stood up and left at the nearest bus stop, choosing to walk the rest of the way.

And it had to happen to me just one day before my birthday?! @_Q#)(U_@($*UY_(HBNO@I{#%+_#*@#(*&%!(*#@&^!*(&#@^!@!!@$&*#^^#@njf(#@$(!@#^&*@*
WHAT THE FUCK

In a land far far away

Aye......

i just don't know how people can come up with such lame things to do.
It's wasting time, and effortless, considering how one party has no acquitted nor forced feelings for the other.
Agreeing to it is just because that's being nice, typical nature though.
So why the trouble?

Taking a walk in the park alone at night

okay, so i'm back... yet again, another sleepless night.

I'll now promise myself i won't cease to exist in the blog world unless I get to places without computers.

I promise myself i won't cease to exist in the blog world inless I get to places without computers.

SIGH... what it takes to make you understand that i'm on you side, and u can just pour everything out

what does it take for you to understand that things are better said as early as possible rather than being delayed.
things are certainly not the same anymore. and i rlly hope you'd come to your senses that we may still be a little pissed and disappointed, but we rlly dont mind at all. stop that fuss about hesitating already...
i have nothing else to say, unless you want the truth...

meanwhile, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL!!!

When you smile to me

lets give ourselves another LONG sigh, longer than the one b4

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okay, now i feel better. Of course, things have been cleared, explained and understood. But i still feel as i would and i will. Then the atmosphere is still brighter now, that we all know everything, and we all are fine and okay... somewhat, in a sense. 

Nope, i dont feel sympathy for you at all, because you really dont deserve it, but i do understand. It's totally 2 different things, so sorry.

Thanks for trying so hard to be so optimistic and happy about it. You made my day (:

Alas, my time in the realm of blog has ceased, and i'm afraid, that under normal circumstances, this blog will be hibernating from the moment i press the publish post button till 16th october. 

meanwhile, happy mugging!