these issues will come to anyone sooner or later eh? and no matter how much you push back the decision, you'll still have to face it in the end.
indecisiveness causes too much harm.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Sunday, July 27, 2008
How much time do you need, its entirely up to you
dhoby ghaut -> chinatown -> somerset -> cityhall -> bugis -> orchard -> Pasir Ris/Kembangan
yepp, that's how much u waste on transport when u go out with your brother on a typical weekend. PLUS the fact that it's completely fruitLESS -.-
but thanks anyway for brightening my day. and i'd have said, its all about choosing what is more important at that specific timing.
today was quite successful too ok! at nafa i mean :P HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. all about connections
yepp, that's how much u waste on transport when u go out with your brother on a typical weekend. PLUS the fact that it's completely fruitLESS -.-
but thanks anyway for brightening my day. and i'd have said, its all about choosing what is more important at that specific timing.
today was quite successful too ok! at nafa i mean :P HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. all about connections
Thursday, July 24, 2008
life is always different without you
woo hoo!!!!
i actually survived to see the light of today! (thou its raining ) its a MIRACLE!
oh yea, uh huh, oo sha! (dance some funny chicken dance)
ok! so, I LOVE YQP!!!!! ah! hahaha
yea, just went to watch Batman: The Dark Knight with my section mates today, to celebrate end of blocks n e success of nyco concert! yay!
and now i m slacking away, dunno wad to do, feeling empty all of a sudden... sighs... post concert depression. happens all the time! argh!
sheesh, and now i m depressed over things that will happen 3 months down the road... yea, guess it correctly, and you get your imaginary brownie ice-cream with complimentary movie tickets for 2*
* terms and conditions apply
nope, not telling yet. wait till the time is right. ok, dunno wad to post... shall end here! bye!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
丝竹琴韵 3
ok. this is to prevent ppl frm dying after looking at the screen too long. cutting it into 4-4 sections wld be better. yupp. 3 posts dedicated to nyco concert stuff. so this will be the details of the happenings on 18th July 2008. form my pov of course.
The night before
yupp, slept accurately at 10.30pm... cos i reached home at 8 plus and i had to tiao qin the last time before the BIG day. after tiao-ing the bottom half, i got so damn tired, i decided to slp, n tiao the nxt day... wonder how ppl just couldn't slp! hahaha. and then again, practising my solo takes up soooo much time, n exhaust the player both physically and mentally(esp this), i keep slping at 10.30pm, for 2 whole weeks. to the heck with school work and blocks! haha
The day itself: morning
yupp, so i woke up at 7am and got a call frm mum saying tat i shld pack my stuff 1st. so i did, n in 1/2 hr, got my stuff ready, n continued to tiao qin. took a bloody long 2 hrs n a stiff neck to finish. regardless, it was necessary. Called brother to wake up at 9am, then got ready to go hair styling. Yupp, after it was done, i'd met banana at bradell mrt (thanks for waiting!) n proceeded to my house to get the tons of stuff (instrus n costumes), ordered a london taxi which came in 5 mins, n off we went to nygh. Thanks again for helping me, julian
The day itself:afternoon-till SCH
sec 2s bought us lemon chinken n bubble tea frm coro, which by the time we were eating, other sections were all dressed n waiting. n we hadn't finish loading stuff on the lorry yet. THANKS SENIORS<3>The day itself:afternoon-rehearsals
rehearsals were quite badly done, things go missing, it was rather lousy, which made all of us super freaked out. Especially when my marimba mallets went missing n i didn't hav double mallets on. N because of all delays, we did not manage to rehearse thru shan jian n taiyang at all. But mrs ee had faith in us. My solo went pretty well, no obvious mistakes, n i'd gotten an uncanny lot of comments on my dress, which i refuse to believe they're saying the truth. Thanks mrs ee for the wonderful comments. i couldn't hope for better. but basically, i had the same sentiments too, esp since last year.
-When i played yq, i thought i'd had matured more, n the music sound more mature. n u confirmed that.
-i'm nt sure abt the improving part, cos i didn't think i'd improve alot. its the last minute chiong-ing that's making sense. but then again, its confirmed by daddy cos he said (the day b4) that only now, i'd start having some essence of the yq skill that joshua has (cos joshua's the magnificently pro one that dad keep praising).
-i do agree i'd became more "open" in my taifeng. its the years of experience, but not enough. but compared to sec 1, of course there's a slight diff. experiencing some difficulties n everything changed me totally last year (shall i call it a blessing in disguise?)
-i couldn't agree more with wad u said abt my solo that will definitely be better during the actual performance in the evening later on.. i mean, after the concert. i felt it too. kind of... i enjoyed performing for the audience(new founded feeling). i ain't that scared of the audience anymore, though i was nvr rlly very scared of performing solo before. mayb cos i was finally able to get my focus on the music mroe than the notes? anyway, it's a good start.
The day itself:evening-dinner
dinner, guess what, usual chicken rice, beni n shawn brought drinks thou. ARIGATO! n ET was with us, but decided to sit on the bench alone, cos we were taking too long to decide where to sit. Yupp, so dinner ,the only time we could talk. All of us shot qns after qns after qns , which were all solved. Then, as yqp, we ran up to backstage immediately when the door is opened, n got ready everything.
The night itself: 丝竹琴韵 '08
And so it started, with us standing by at the side, getting all hyped up and everything. N after emcees started, we went in, n it was BALI 1st. surprisingly, my consistent failure to play those little 1 bar solo bits were rlly successful n louder! bali went well.
--then SHA DI ER. It was quite well too, but i kinda screwed up the shou gu. its skin was too tight, n thus the pitch too high. regardless, it went well without obvious mistakes.
-I recall the whole yqp being tgt by the side, waiting for our turn, when it rlly was our turn. STORM. the set up took a while cos the wheels of the mallets instru are locked, n are awfully hard to unlock them. still, it turned out all very fine. The whole pice was quite ok, from audience point of view. But as what julian said, passable, not awesome, but passable. that's the most we could do in such short time. GD JOB
- and it was DIYI. It went rather well, n limqing look cool in that gown.my sis said she loved it very much. yup, the vibe proble mwas finally sorted out, thanks to the gd acoustics in SCH.
during interval, i immediately pulled yuka to my VIP rm n got changed into my solo dress. Thanks yuka once again. N then i was done during BAIYI GUNIANG the guzheng piece, so i didn't rlly pay any attention to it. heard it was quite ok thou.
-and it was my itme *shudders* TIAN SHAN SHI HUA. not that i was scared. but as i'd have mentioned, my section gave me the last boost for me to play the music as i wanted it. Giving hugs and encouragements... i was so touched, i almost wanted to cry, n got nervous. BUT i told myself that by doing that, i'd just ruined the whole thing. so I walked out , n started playing. Heard gd comments frm ppl too. Thank you ppl, for sms-ing me words of congrats aftr that!
(added on 30/8/08- heard the recording. AND RECORDINGS ARE MERCILESS. It was not as good as i expected, and what i heard on stage that day. but overall it was pretty well. And as usual, i portrayed the musical sense of the piece beautifully [said by a respected person for music]- but i ain't satisfied. JIAYOU!)
-then, off to change while cass goes on as piano accompaniment for YANG GUANG. it was crap during rehearsals, but it turned out just fine, which was good. gd job cass!
- we were still running abt, getting luos n chuis ready n all that, making sure all drums had powder on etc etc when alumni finished their item. n the the emcees announced our item, QIN WANG DIAN BIN, n we moved out, afap. n it started. everyone was amazed by our drumming, and especially the effects of the introduction, what with the powder effect. I'm quite sure qin wang was one of the best item. We did our best yqp! We placed the whole of ourselves into the music. It was marvelous.
- n then, there was chaos on stage when we all started arranging instrus for SHAN JIAN. it was quite well done. esther was fantastic too! haha, i rmb just b4 qin wang, we were signing autographs for xyz juniors!
-AND FINALLY, our grand finale item, TAI YANG. I think everyone enjoyed this the most, creating the atmosphere n getting the adrenaline. It was not proffesional, but yes, awesome. The effect on the audience was perfect.
The night itself: moving instruments back to m4-01
it was super chaotic after everything, n ppl just left, leaving yqp sheng n ssabollec to fend for ourselves against the merciless rain. We reached school at around 12 (cos this time, 1 lorry was almost not enough as perc has like 2 sets of tim, 1 big marimba n a big datanggu). So we started to unload and move things up- we had to tilt the yun luo vertically and disemble the marimba which took too much time- and by that time, it was qutie near 1am. Gd job us. thanks miss chooi, for staying and bearing with the tiredness that was showing clearly on her face. After settling the important shit, we left, by the naggy but necessary reminders by miss chooi.
It was rlly worth everything. I LOVE YOU, NYCO
The night before
yupp, slept accurately at 10.30pm... cos i reached home at 8 plus and i had to tiao qin the last time before the BIG day. after tiao-ing the bottom half, i got so damn tired, i decided to slp, n tiao the nxt day... wonder how ppl just couldn't slp! hahaha. and then again, practising my solo takes up soooo much time, n exhaust the player both physically and mentally(esp this), i keep slping at 10.30pm, for 2 whole weeks. to the heck with school work and blocks! haha
The day itself: morning
yupp, so i woke up at 7am and got a call frm mum saying tat i shld pack my stuff 1st. so i did, n in 1/2 hr, got my stuff ready, n continued to tiao qin. took a bloody long 2 hrs n a stiff neck to finish. regardless, it was necessary. Called brother to wake up at 9am, then got ready to go hair styling. Yupp, after it was done, i'd met banana at bradell mrt (thanks for waiting!) n proceeded to my house to get the tons of stuff (instrus n costumes), ordered a london taxi which came in 5 mins, n off we went to nygh. Thanks again for helping me, julian
The day itself:afternoon-till SCH
sec 2s bought us lemon chinken n bubble tea frm coro, which by the time we were eating, other sections were all dressed n waiting. n we hadn't finish loading stuff on the lorry yet. THANKS SENIORS<3>The day itself:afternoon-rehearsals
rehearsals were quite badly done, things go missing, it was rather lousy, which made all of us super freaked out. Especially when my marimba mallets went missing n i didn't hav double mallets on. N because of all delays, we did not manage to rehearse thru shan jian n taiyang at all. But mrs ee had faith in us. My solo went pretty well, no obvious mistakes, n i'd gotten an uncanny lot of comments on my dress, which i refuse to believe they're saying the truth. Thanks mrs ee for the wonderful comments. i couldn't hope for better. but basically, i had the same sentiments too, esp since last year.
-When i played yq, i thought i'd had matured more, n the music sound more mature. n u confirmed that.
-i'm nt sure abt the improving part, cos i didn't think i'd improve alot. its the last minute chiong-ing that's making sense. but then again, its confirmed by daddy cos he said (the day b4) that only now, i'd start having some essence of the yq skill that joshua has (cos joshua's the magnificently pro one that dad keep praising).
-i do agree i'd became more "open" in my taifeng. its the years of experience, but not enough. but compared to sec 1, of course there's a slight diff. experiencing some difficulties n everything changed me totally last year (shall i call it a blessing in disguise?)
-i couldn't agree more with wad u said abt my solo that will definitely be better during the actual performance in the evening later on.. i mean, after the concert. i felt it too. kind of... i enjoyed performing for the audience(new founded feeling). i ain't that scared of the audience anymore, though i was nvr rlly very scared of performing solo before. mayb cos i was finally able to get my focus on the music mroe than the notes? anyway, it's a good start.
The day itself:evening-dinner
dinner, guess what, usual chicken rice, beni n shawn brought drinks thou. ARIGATO! n ET was with us, but decided to sit on the bench alone, cos we were taking too long to decide where to sit. Yupp, so dinner ,the only time we could talk. All of us shot qns after qns after qns , which were all solved. Then, as yqp, we ran up to backstage immediately when the door is opened, n got ready everything.
The night itself: 丝竹琴韵 '08
And so it started, with us standing by at the side, getting all hyped up and everything. N after emcees started, we went in, n it was BALI 1st. surprisingly, my consistent failure to play those little 1 bar solo bits were rlly successful n louder! bali went well.
--then SHA DI ER. It was quite well too, but i kinda screwed up the shou gu. its skin was too tight, n thus the pitch too high. regardless, it went well without obvious mistakes.
-I recall the whole yqp being tgt by the side, waiting for our turn, when it rlly was our turn. STORM. the set up took a while cos the wheels of the mallets instru are locked, n are awfully hard to unlock them. still, it turned out all very fine. The whole pice was quite ok, from audience point of view. But as what julian said, passable, not awesome, but passable. that's the most we could do in such short time. GD JOB
- and it was DIYI. It went rather well, n limqing look cool in that gown.my sis said she loved it very much. yup, the vibe proble mwas finally sorted out, thanks to the gd acoustics in SCH.
during interval, i immediately pulled yuka to my VIP rm n got changed into my solo dress. Thanks yuka once again. N then i was done during BAIYI GUNIANG the guzheng piece, so i didn't rlly pay any attention to it. heard it was quite ok thou.
-and it was my itme *shudders* TIAN SHAN SHI HUA. not that i was scared. but as i'd have mentioned, my section gave me the last boost for me to play the music as i wanted it. Giving hugs and encouragements... i was so touched, i almost wanted to cry, n got nervous. BUT i told myself that by doing that, i'd just ruined the whole thing. so I walked out , n started playing. Heard gd comments frm ppl too. Thank you ppl, for sms-ing me words of congrats aftr that!
(added on 30/8/08- heard the recording. AND RECORDINGS ARE MERCILESS. It was not as good as i expected, and what i heard on stage that day. but overall it was pretty well. And as usual, i portrayed the musical sense of the piece beautifully [said by a respected person for music]- but i ain't satisfied. JIAYOU!)
-then, off to change while cass goes on as piano accompaniment for YANG GUANG. it was crap during rehearsals, but it turned out just fine, which was good. gd job cass!
- we were still running abt, getting luos n chuis ready n all that, making sure all drums had powder on etc etc when alumni finished their item. n the the emcees announced our item, QIN WANG DIAN BIN, n we moved out, afap. n it started. everyone was amazed by our drumming, and especially the effects of the introduction, what with the powder effect. I'm quite sure qin wang was one of the best item. We did our best yqp! We placed the whole of ourselves into the music. It was marvelous.
- n then, there was chaos on stage when we all started arranging instrus for SHAN JIAN. it was quite well done. esther was fantastic too! haha, i rmb just b4 qin wang, we were signing autographs for xyz juniors!
-AND FINALLY, our grand finale item, TAI YANG. I think everyone enjoyed this the most, creating the atmosphere n getting the adrenaline. It was not proffesional, but yes, awesome. The effect on the audience was perfect.
The night itself: moving instruments back to m4-01
it was super chaotic after everything, n ppl just left, leaving yqp sheng n ssabollec to fend for ourselves against the merciless rain. We reached school at around 12 (cos this time, 1 lorry was almost not enough as perc has like 2 sets of tim, 1 big marimba n a big datanggu). So we started to unload and move things up- we had to tilt the yun luo vertically and disemble the marimba which took too much time- and by that time, it was qutie near 1am. Gd job us. thanks miss chooi, for staying and bearing with the tiredness that was showing clearly on her face. After settling the important shit, we left, by the naggy but necessary reminders by miss chooi.
It was rlly worth everything. I LOVE YOU, NYCO
丝竹琴韵 2
wow looks at the time. 3.30am.
n to the hell with blocks. just done searching all the nyco related stuff on goggle (typical :P) yea, quite please with the comments n such. NYCO <3. somehow, this concert is the best i'd ever had.
maybe its the super hard work over the past months and all that frantic anxiety over everything to be in perfect order, that's why the success felt so satisfying. Too satisfying indeed.
only know do i really understand post concert depressions. Yea, i do miss the other concerts (some only) and syfs etc etc, but this particular concert gave me the deepest impression. So mych that i still want it to continue on forever, to have another round... come to think of it, its the last NYCO concert i'll have. Pass all the ups and downs, happy and frightening moments... i've never felt so bonded to a chinese orchestra in my life before. you are the 1st and the only one that can do it, nyco.
who's going to remember what they ate for dinner on concert day? who's going to remember what notes they played wrongly?
of course, its the standing ovation we received from the audiences, the hectic backstage experiences, the end concert clear up (like ahem, moving instruments back to m401 till 1pm etc), the near shit my qin xuan snapped into half moments and most importantly, the music we as nyco felt as a whole, and in turn offereing it to our audience.
come to think of it now, i don't even havethe mood to study... feels kind of like... i'd have lost everything, no direction, just walking because there's a road. I know, i'd been warned by me angel before, n expecting it to come, but, i didn;t know the impact would be this great, like staying up till 4am n such.
it'll pass, it'll [ass. thats what everyone keep saying. and it definitely will pass... but how long before that?
n to the hell with blocks. just done searching all the nyco related stuff on goggle (typical :P) yea, quite please with the comments n such. NYCO <3. somehow, this concert is the best i'd ever had.
maybe its the super hard work over the past months and all that frantic anxiety over everything to be in perfect order, that's why the success felt so satisfying. Too satisfying indeed.
only know do i really understand post concert depressions. Yea, i do miss the other concerts (some only) and syfs etc etc, but this particular concert gave me the deepest impression. So mych that i still want it to continue on forever, to have another round... come to think of it, its the last NYCO concert i'll have. Pass all the ups and downs, happy and frightening moments... i've never felt so bonded to a chinese orchestra in my life before. you are the 1st and the only one that can do it, nyco.
who's going to remember what they ate for dinner on concert day? who's going to remember what notes they played wrongly?
of course, its the standing ovation we received from the audiences, the hectic backstage experiences, the end concert clear up (like ahem, moving instruments back to m401 till 1pm etc), the near shit my qin xuan snapped into half moments and most importantly, the music we as nyco felt as a whole, and in turn offereing it to our audience.
come to think of it now, i don't even havethe mood to study... feels kind of like... i'd have lost everything, no direction, just walking because there's a road. I know, i'd been warned by me angel before, n expecting it to come, but, i didn;t know the impact would be this great, like staying up till 4am n such.
it'll pass, it'll [ass. thats what everyone keep saying. and it definitely will pass... but how long before that?
丝竹琴韵
and it ended with taiyang.
yepp, putting aside all the fantastic comments i saw on google about this year's NYCO concert, i believed it was a great success, even bigger than 2 years ago.
I seem to remember, 2 years ago when i just joined nyco, feeling lost and scared (cos i was the only sec 1 with hazel), yet safe and assured cos everything was settled nicely, knowing that we were all ready for the concert a few months before. And regardless of what, it went very smoothly.
Come this year, 2 years since, things began looking hectic. Programme too long, costumes not settled, orchestral pieces not ready (to the extend of only starting a new piece less than a month before concert), tickets and poster designs, the lack of enthusiasm in juniors etc etc etc. and it goes on and on and on...
yet we all enjoyed it. Its the process that is what we will enjoy looking back few years down the road... the great times we spent practising, bonding, laughing and frustrated. Yea, this will be a special something stored in my memories forever~
There are a few people I want to thank or rather, acknowledge that in some way or another helped make this concert a great success:
Mrs Ee: for believing in the impossible (like *coughs* doing 2 concertos n playing all the hard pieces that COs seldom dare to), driving us to the limit and beyond, making sure we do our best and not hun, making us believe that we can make it in time. Most importantly, thanks for being strict and serious during dazus. Without that, we would not have improved so much as a whole CO. For personal, thanks for giving me this wonderful opportunity, which serves as a stepping stone for my musical journey. Thanks for allowing me to showcase my lousy talent, and giving me the drive to improve on my yangqin.
Chew Fei: for daring to take risks and driving us to our limits as well, doing both chinese n western perc, conducting section talks which allows us to help each other reflect and comment on room for improvements for each other.
NYCO: for making things possible and enjoyable for everyone. Without each and everyone of u, there would not have been an NYCO.
YQP: for giving me such enjoyable moments, for giving me the drive to improve on my skills, for allowing me to have different experiences and emotions, for believing that we can make it and bond as a whole section, for standing together, for our courage. Thanks for the fun times we shared. Thanks for your never-ending support, esp during my solo :P hahaha, i'd like to see u guys dance! Thanks so much for the encouraging words u guys said just before i went on stage. Without these words, i would have felt rlly empty and alone, and the emotions would not have been portrayed out in my solo as the way i wanted it to so nicely. Thanks for helping me out, esp the mallets thing and scores n qinzhus n every little logistics that was needed to be done, yet i forget or was to freaked out to remember. Love you guys~ <3
nygh runners n AVA club: Thanks for being there, despite block tests being 3 days away. If not for your vigourous training to move things in lightning speed, there would be shortage of seats and too much comsumed time, and audiences would not have liked it. Thanks for the support you gave us, for without u guys, we would not have played well too.
Audiences: thanks for taking your precious time away to attend this concert. Without u guys, the concert would have been stage for naught. U made a lot of different. Thanks for coming to appreciate the music we had offered, hope u had an enjoyable evening.
GECO: thanks for lending me the shou gu, or i'd have completely screwed up sha dier. And of cos, for supporting our members, making us feel proud of ourselves. Hope u guys had a wonderful evening too!
My family: for giving me your full support since the day i decided to take the untaken road, the music side (i know sports run in our family) and giving me constructive comments when i practise at home. Thanks for allowing me to fufil my dreams and getting responses that i liked. Thanks for helping me out when i most needed them. Without u guys, there would not have been this memorable day for me.
GECO percussion: Thanks for givign me the drive to hone my percussion skills. Thou there are only a pathetic number of 5 frequent official members, i'd like to say that u guys (yea, all male, weird) made me feel homely about ge. Not to mention that u guys supported me full-heartedly too, esp for this concert. It feels wonderful, being with u guys ,feeling so bonded and all. In fact, it must be our size that made it so fast n easy to bond together (but u still come in 2nd aftr yqp <3) thanks for fully accepting me. I was afraid u guys wont, esp when i m the only girl. love you guys too! <3
Oh and of course, the are some people i would like to mention specially:
Yuka: for helping me get changed into my costume so many times as quick as possible. I couldn't imagine how i would have fared if u weren't there.
wei lao shi: (thou u cant read english) for your guidance and advices on my solo item, helping me improve and such.
julian: thanks for specially going down to bradell(gosh is this how u spell it?!) all the way frm the east :( and waiting for almost 1 hour (thou u deserve it ok!) for me and then to my house to help me with the tons of instruments i had to bring to school. Thanks for going all the way to nygh with me. Thanks for helping me out with the shou gu (that particualr ge session :P) and the lending of gu chuis. I promise i'll find it back for u! or buy a new one :P haha. Thanks for all the encouraging words u showered me with from long before the concert till now, even after the concert.Thanks for believing in us, yqp, and giving us support in anyway you can, from helping us with longteng (such long times) and giving us encouragements by the things u did for us. We really appriciate it very very much. Thou not obvious, but u did affect us in some way. Thakns for being the best brother i'd ever had.
Lim qing: for lending me your jacket- i completely forgot to bring mine! shit! haha
To everyone else and those that i forget to mention and thsoe that i mentioned , THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
yepp, putting aside all the fantastic comments i saw on google about this year's NYCO concert, i believed it was a great success, even bigger than 2 years ago.
I seem to remember, 2 years ago when i just joined nyco, feeling lost and scared (cos i was the only sec 1 with hazel), yet safe and assured cos everything was settled nicely, knowing that we were all ready for the concert a few months before. And regardless of what, it went very smoothly.
Come this year, 2 years since, things began looking hectic. Programme too long, costumes not settled, orchestral pieces not ready (to the extend of only starting a new piece less than a month before concert), tickets and poster designs, the lack of enthusiasm in juniors etc etc etc. and it goes on and on and on...
yet we all enjoyed it. Its the process that is what we will enjoy looking back few years down the road... the great times we spent practising, bonding, laughing and frustrated. Yea, this will be a special something stored in my memories forever~
There are a few people I want to thank or rather, acknowledge that in some way or another helped make this concert a great success:
Mrs Ee: for believing in the impossible (like *coughs* doing 2 concertos n playing all the hard pieces that COs seldom dare to), driving us to the limit and beyond, making sure we do our best and not hun, making us believe that we can make it in time. Most importantly, thanks for being strict and serious during dazus. Without that, we would not have improved so much as a whole CO. For personal, thanks for giving me this wonderful opportunity, which serves as a stepping stone for my musical journey. Thanks for allowing me to showcase my lousy talent, and giving me the drive to improve on my yangqin.
Chew Fei: for daring to take risks and driving us to our limits as well, doing both chinese n western perc, conducting section talks which allows us to help each other reflect and comment on room for improvements for each other.
NYCO: for making things possible and enjoyable for everyone. Without each and everyone of u, there would not have been an NYCO.
YQP: for giving me such enjoyable moments, for giving me the drive to improve on my skills, for allowing me to have different experiences and emotions, for believing that we can make it and bond as a whole section, for standing together, for our courage. Thanks for the fun times we shared. Thanks for your never-ending support, esp during my solo :P hahaha, i'd like to see u guys dance! Thanks so much for the encouraging words u guys said just before i went on stage. Without these words, i would have felt rlly empty and alone, and the emotions would not have been portrayed out in my solo as the way i wanted it to so nicely. Thanks for helping me out, esp the mallets thing and scores n qinzhus n every little logistics that was needed to be done, yet i forget or was to freaked out to remember. Love you guys~ <3
nygh runners n AVA club: Thanks for being there, despite block tests being 3 days away. If not for your vigourous training to move things in lightning speed, there would be shortage of seats and too much comsumed time, and audiences would not have liked it. Thanks for the support you gave us, for without u guys, we would not have played well too.
Audiences: thanks for taking your precious time away to attend this concert. Without u guys, the concert would have been stage for naught. U made a lot of different. Thanks for coming to appreciate the music we had offered, hope u had an enjoyable evening.
GECO: thanks for lending me the shou gu, or i'd have completely screwed up sha dier. And of cos, for supporting our members, making us feel proud of ourselves. Hope u guys had a wonderful evening too!
My family: for giving me your full support since the day i decided to take the untaken road, the music side (i know sports run in our family) and giving me constructive comments when i practise at home. Thanks for allowing me to fufil my dreams and getting responses that i liked. Thanks for helping me out when i most needed them. Without u guys, there would not have been this memorable day for me.
GECO percussion: Thanks for givign me the drive to hone my percussion skills. Thou there are only a pathetic number of 5 frequent official members, i'd like to say that u guys (yea, all male, weird) made me feel homely about ge. Not to mention that u guys supported me full-heartedly too, esp for this concert. It feels wonderful, being with u guys ,feeling so bonded and all. In fact, it must be our size that made it so fast n easy to bond together (but u still come in 2nd aftr yqp <3) thanks for fully accepting me. I was afraid u guys wont, esp when i m the only girl. love you guys too! <3
Oh and of course, the are some people i would like to mention specially:
Yuka: for helping me get changed into my costume so many times as quick as possible. I couldn't imagine how i would have fared if u weren't there.
wei lao shi: (thou u cant read english) for your guidance and advices on my solo item, helping me improve and such.
julian: thanks for specially going down to bradell(gosh is this how u spell it?!) all the way frm the east :( and waiting for almost 1 hour (thou u deserve it ok!) for me and then to my house to help me with the tons of instruments i had to bring to school. Thanks for going all the way to nygh with me. Thanks for helping me out with the shou gu (that particualr ge session :P) and the lending of gu chuis. I promise i'll find it back for u! or buy a new one :P haha. Thanks for all the encouraging words u showered me with from long before the concert till now, even after the concert.Thanks for believing in us, yqp, and giving us support in anyway you can, from helping us with longteng (such long times) and giving us encouragements by the things u did for us. We really appriciate it very very much. Thou not obvious, but u did affect us in some way. Thakns for being the best brother i'd ever had.
Lim qing: for lending me your jacket- i completely forgot to bring mine! shit! haha
To everyone else and those that i forget to mention and thsoe that i mentioned , THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
We must wait until the other appears.
what a day...
sucked into my own world of believing and madness...
yupp, that's me, being so enthu about everything, helping ppl so muc hwhen i don't need to,
caring too much about others...
and what about me?
did u rlly think u care about others too much more than yourself? then what about me? WHAT about me?
i care too much about others to even care if i pass or fail, tired or not... i think i care too much about hurting other people's feelings.
What in the world is wrong? i shold stop being so concern about people around me...
i took a step, and that sensation gushed into my whole body,
falling into an abyss,
deeper and deeper and deeper...
and suddenly the seemingly never ending abyss turned into sea of sponges,
and you were there with your arms wide open, catching me where i fall...
...you are the end of that abyss, and i've fallen nicely into it, not struggling to get out at all...
it's all too comfortable.
just read thru some ppl's blog posts from their day 1... it's just 3 years, and yet we've grown so much... what was a simple and close friendship turned so complicated, yet everything turns out fine after all... which comes to the point that all things go in circles. It's yet another cycle... waiting to turn jsut one more round, but our hands, held together, is stopping it.
what's wrong with me?! semi-emo-ing again... perhaps its the today thing that's causing it?
and yet, i m waiting again.
sucked into my own world of believing and madness...
yupp, that's me, being so enthu about everything, helping ppl so muc hwhen i don't need to,
caring too much about others...
and what about me?
did u rlly think u care about others too much more than yourself? then what about me? WHAT about me?
i care too much about others to even care if i pass or fail, tired or not... i think i care too much about hurting other people's feelings.
What in the world is wrong? i shold stop being so concern about people around me...
i took a step, and that sensation gushed into my whole body,
falling into an abyss,
deeper and deeper and deeper...
and suddenly the seemingly never ending abyss turned into sea of sponges,
and you were there with your arms wide open, catching me where i fall...
...you are the end of that abyss, and i've fallen nicely into it, not struggling to get out at all...
it's all too comfortable.
just read thru some ppl's blog posts from their day 1... it's just 3 years, and yet we've grown so much... what was a simple and close friendship turned so complicated, yet everything turns out fine after all... which comes to the point that all things go in circles. It's yet another cycle... waiting to turn jsut one more round, but our hands, held together, is stopping it.
what's wrong with me?! semi-emo-ing again... perhaps its the today thing that's causing it?
and yet, i m waiting again.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Dedications
to my dearest brother :)
I am really quite fond of you now, coming to finally understand the feeling in my heart for the past few weeks (which i'd have told you sometime ago). For the past few weeks, there was always this strange unfamiliar sense residing in my heart, making me very confused, and thus the semi-emo-ing days.
So i went through each person that i know, at the same time relating that name to the feeling. Most of them did not have any reaction, but yea, it was yours alright. I wasn't sure what on earth that feeling was, bugging me, making me feel happy yet sad at the same time. The strongest time i felt that was on the 1st day of camp though... and i couldn't control it... so i went to the toilet and let it all out. Thankfully no one was there :P
(this is gg to sound wrong...) you were always so cheerful, brightening things up and everything, truthful about your weakness and yet not disregarding it. You are quite humble and motivational indeed. Encouraging would be a nicer word :)
It was only until that Saturday aftrnn outing that i finally understand what i have always not get. Things that i did and thought of for and about you were somewhat the same as how i'd treated my sister... in a little different way. That was when i realised that all the while, i do care for your well-being (which is a should as part of the percussion section welfare :D) like how i care for my sister too. What are siblings for anyway!
Thank you dearest brother once again, for giving me such joy and experience which i could relate to in the future.
Thank you, everyone and thing which made this possible to happen.
I don't have the gist of writing and depicting my feelings and mood clearly on words. I ain't one who's good with words. So, in any case, this is the primary feeling. The others are hard to express in words. Or its just that i can't seem to find the right words. (my vocab is extremely limited)
i m contemplating whether to post this or not...
I am really quite fond of you now, coming to finally understand the feeling in my heart for the past few weeks (which i'd have told you sometime ago). For the past few weeks, there was always this strange unfamiliar sense residing in my heart, making me very confused, and thus the semi-emo-ing days.
So i went through each person that i know, at the same time relating that name to the feeling. Most of them did not have any reaction, but yea, it was yours alright. I wasn't sure what on earth that feeling was, bugging me, making me feel happy yet sad at the same time. The strongest time i felt that was on the 1st day of camp though... and i couldn't control it... so i went to the toilet and let it all out. Thankfully no one was there :P
(this is gg to sound wrong...) you were always so cheerful, brightening things up and everything, truthful about your weakness and yet not disregarding it. You are quite humble and motivational indeed. Encouraging would be a nicer word :)
It was only until that Saturday aftrnn outing that i finally understand what i have always not get. Things that i did and thought of for and about you were somewhat the same as how i'd treated my sister... in a little different way. That was when i realised that all the while, i do care for your well-being (which is a should as part of the percussion section welfare :D) like how i care for my sister too. What are siblings for anyway!
Thank you dearest brother once again, for giving me such joy and experience which i could relate to in the future.
Thank you, everyone and thing which made this possible to happen.
I don't have the gist of writing and depicting my feelings and mood clearly on words. I ain't one who's good with words. So, in any case, this is the primary feeling. The others are hard to express in words. Or its just that i can't seem to find the right words. (my vocab is extremely limited)
i m contemplating whether to post this or not...
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