luurrrb euuuu

(:
sister bonding times are strangely fun and totally cool.

had some family bonding time too, ytd b4 gg out. took out the shou gu to prac abit, n started bragging abt how hard it is etc etc (haha ;P) n mum ask me to teach my granddad grandmum. yea, while doing that ,my mind was processing it in another angle ,like those movies thinggem, reflecting on past happy memories, n tat emo music thing... haha

jus felt that it was quite cool, i totally enjoyed tat as well
i know ppl'll think i m weird/ super lucky, but i do hav family probs too. everyone has them. its just the degree of dysfunctionalisation... if there's such word.
as much as i hate my family, i love them too. after all, who can i go to in times of need?

Me?

whoops, this is bad. B-A-D.
i m actually itching to blog again, after successfully restric myself frm blogging anymore.
Must be someone's infouence.
wonder who...

anyway, watching 我太太是流氓2, at the same time Whose line is it anyway?... its like a while fighting, a while funny.. so weird! hahaha.

shall get on with watching my shows now (:

Touched

Just came back from a concert by my sis's school... for their 75th anniversary.
The children looked so cute! When the youngests of those came out with table tennis bats, my tears couldn't hold it any longer.

I had no idea what drove me to that, but, i seem to feel so much emotions for them, dancing... dancing... dancing... Oh how innocent they looked, as i stared at them for a seemingly long time..............................................before the stage cleared.
Ah, what i'd do to get the chance to go back to my primary school days when i don't worry about so much things (and there's gg to be more each year as i grow).
Carefree.
No chance to regret it now.

Morbid? at this age, i shld be yearning for adulthood or sth, like what everyone does... Nope, my heart stays with the bouncy scuttlers that are filling up the stage in UCC, filling up the stage in my heart, giving a show to just me. Alone.

And I cried again. Just felt touched by the children... flinging their arms senselessly as their teacher wants to, yet enjoying all the time, smiling and smiling, true from the heart.

A forced smile...

You said that last night.

Oh man, i m seriously not doing this again?! at almost 1 am in the morning, and blogging when i m supposed to be slping.
shucks... tchr wants to listen to my solo tmr.. *DIES*

hm, i wonder why nowadays when i am alone, i tend to think of things i constantly remind myself not to. Then i'll start emo-ing in my heart, but show nothing at all on the outside. WEIRD. wendy, get a grip on yourself.

hey dude! (yes, directed at someone, despite the last post -.-) i'm still on abt being a child psychologist aft.. 7mths ok... n u were saying the thought'll die out soon. Though now its not psychologist i want. its PSYCHIARTRIST.
yepp, psychologist who prescribes medicine.





i feel this way everytime i think of you... why?
it's so different from the rest, despite myself saying over and over again that it is impossible...
get out of my life! to save the both of us...
before its too late for me...

Do you care for me?

Whew

a long time had elapsed since i last posted. perhaps thats all for the best. I don't know what to blog about anyway... not to mention that i do have a wordpress n a few more blog links...

yea, its smack in the middle of the night, and i m chiong-ing trigo, at the same time reading ppl's blogs. n sms-ing. SUPER UNHEALTHY. what can I do anyway... welcome to my life.

had NYCO prac today, was lin lao's dazu... SHA DI ER n MENG ZHI BALI~ both are super nice, but i happen to be on the weird side of it.
plays weird instruments for both pieces, and apparently, my juniors (frm other section) thinks they're damn COOL- sure.
They won't say that if they're the ones playing a shou gu till their hands get damn red n pain or slapping paigus with conga sticks cos congas are non-existence in CO. sure.

i know, must be wondering why the psot title...

Do you care for me?

Not directing at anyone. Seriously. I have the impression that if a sentence is directed to someone, everyone who reads it will think it's them. It must be true. Or it's just me. So don't think I am directing it to anyone.

*wow... my mum just spelt chaos with a K* grins... silly old mum <3

ok, so the hustle and bustle of holidays are over. GOOD
UK trip was cool. what could I say about it. Seriously, if u r planning to see me blog abt UK trip, then u can sit in front of the comp for a few thousand more years. it'll appear soon enough.
MOE CO CAMP was quite fun. *still have the songs stuck in my head!!!* Loved the last day the most.

i have so given up on maths now. NO MORE TRIGO.

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just thinking of some things...
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have you ever had a sense of elation yet sorrow at the same time?
that you are happy to see a person happy, even if it makes you sad?
and you always want to keep that person in sight for as long as you can?
to hold the moment of being together longer so that you can enjoy it more?
that is love, my dear, love.

I am feeling a strong ense o emotinal outburst right now.
No idea why.
Must be sme particular emails i just read.

just want to say that I am who I am.
When thee is something that I disagree to, I won't make a comment or show it.
But when i strongly disagree to something, i will definitely express it out, like a new point of view thing to the whole something. Still, i won't make it look as though i strongly disagree to it. So when i ever do mke these coments, you know i really am against the idea.

Straight face. no smiles.

OBS

was not a really good ahem, camp.

like firstly, it was raining (HEAVY DOWNPOUR) all day throughout the whole week. Which means doing everything in the rain, including trekking and kayaking. Now, I won't go through the trouble of writing everything down. You'll know it anyway, or you'll know soon.

yay, today's monday! and i'd have done so many things - bought my nice white heels, white dresses, finished transcribing for my mum- I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED! hahahahahaha
and wheee
don't you see the radiant smile hanging on my face?! my dad's got a tablet PC for me :) joyous occasion (: hp, it's personal. AND not forgetting my new mini mp4 player

wahahaha i feel so happy. And i am still thinking of the UK trip (yesh yesh yesh)

am i...? yes...
don't think i am going to forgive you so easily yet.
These things cannot be done exaggeratedly too much.
Laugh about it once, twice, thrice...
Do you think this can go on forever?
Do you think I can stand this forever?
Do you think you can always stay insensitive forever?
Grow up.

I am still the cheerful bubbly person

HALLELUJAH

yay! saw JJLIN at Bugis junction on sunday (:

and i didn't know he was going to be there.
STILL, OMG!!! haha, my 1st idol! yay
anyway, shi wee n i saw a really nice dress, which is suitable for stage, and guess what. $85. wow. like i can afford that. of course i can, but i must SAVE UP for the UK trip!

just came back from taking the blood test. well, not exactly a test, cos the doctor just take some blood from me, (with me trying not to @)%*@) haha... don't like needles.

AND IT'S OBS next week! *cries* i seem to have a lot of things coming up all of a sudden. like last year (or 2 years ago)- should be last year.

-->First coming up is this stinking OBS and i bet i would say i enjoy it after next week.
-->Next is hm, the audition for MOE CO CAMP... which i hope i can get in, or maybe not, cos before that is the UK trip.
--> Then it's the performance (sth to do with all CO instruments societies send a few ppl to perform- a national thinggo)on sunday, 16th march, last day of march hols, which is where the $85 dress comes in.
--> And then that's about it till June, the UK trip, and probably the MOE CO CAMP.yea
--> Lastly, our NYCO concert, which i will probably be playing a solo or sth.

Don't you think tis is such a wonderful and enriching life?! -.- out of all, i only like the UK trip. and possibly the OBS (hard to say). Well, seeing that i have nothing to do now, i better find sth CONSTRUCTIVE to do...

and needls are just horrible.

HAHAHA

bought a new bag from Charles & Keith today! yay so happy.
And a short-cum-long sleeves shirt as well from taka! it's so cool! as in like the sleeves can be taken out, and buttoned on again! haha
shall upload the pics of these 2 things when i've got the time.

got a new mp4 as well! haha yay! it's touch screen~
AND I AM GOING TO UK!~yay! haha, so many things to be happy abt (:
oh yea, and i put my money into my bank account just now (: and now i have enough for the UK trip (: haha (allowance i mean)

sall be slping soon. Look at the time *yawns*

Happy Chinese New Year

àlthough it's a bit too late, but well, it ok.

since ppl hardly read this blog atall. anyway, there's nothing much to say, except going idioticly and irrevocably crazy over a series (twilight etc) by stepehnie meyer.

yea, so best wishes for everyone, and i don't like this keyboard (my sister's). like i can't ypeas fast as on mine ( cos apparently, it can't pick up the 2nd letter if it's pressed a nano second after the 1st was pressed.) and the cpu is so fast.

*fumming*
*takes deep breath*

THANK YOU TABI! haha for lending me twilight. BTW, i'd finished all three, and is waiting impatiently for the nex book to appear. An i'd reread the whole of twilight. Gd book <333