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我知道持续把伤心事憋在心里不说是会闹出心理病的。。。但是我人身中就是那么多的不能说，我又岂能大声呐喊呢？
有的事情愈是令人苦恼，另人难以接受， 愈是不能说出来。 尤其是自己根本不应该知道的事，却在毫无心里准备的情况下得知，令我既失望又伤心，就好像被刀刺了一下。我真是井退两难。。。真不知道该如何面对他，也不知道自己要装不知道到什么时候。此刻的我已经对他测低的失望。我最增的人格竟然会是他从小就养成的怪癖。。。。。。。。。我该怎么办。。。该怎么办。。。

我恨死你们，巴不得永远都不再接进你们，你们一个个都不是好东西！走！别再干涉我的生活，别让我再为你们这群野兽烦恼。

Isn't this what I've always been waiting for? The hard truth that is, predictably, always the hardest to digest? And I thought I did make enough mental preparation to accept whatever that comes…… if it were the normal stuff, I'd swallow it down, but THIS is just unforgivable. This is too much for me to bear. Of all things to be faulted for, it has to be this. The one and only thing that will make me mad when I think about. The one and only thing I can NEVER forgive. Why…… why the twist of fate? Why the cruelty of life?

There you go.
You wanted the truth, Wendy.
You wanted to find out.
Now you've got it.

我宁愿永远被蒙在鼓里。