rocks! in a way...
excluding the "pathetic state" we were in by 2nd night, it was rlly quite fun!
Woke up quite late on monday, but luckily i kind of packed the night before, so it was okay. I didn't know how to go, so i met up with kuan git at the bus stop a few from parkway parade, and we waited for sheila and jeanette. Then we went to ECP, by a series of shortcuts founded by kuan git (since he knew his way so well). Halfway there, i phoned yuka to come with us (cos she didn't know where the chalet is, and shunta kind of gladly ps her at home). Anyway, we reached the chalet... with no one in sight. So yuka, yanqi and i decided to teach tricia how to cycle (: When we went back, the rooms were opened and so we had a break.
And then yuka n i went back to yuka's house cos some ppl left their stuff there. So we were planning to ride back, get the stuff and return, but end up yuka had to go get scores for nyco ppl for the next day's rehearsal (which i conveniently forgot to go ><), so we took taxi to tpy, photocopied and took bus back to ECP. By then, qing gong yan had already started, and we were kind of the last to eat the buffet... Ah, so tiring!
Well after qing gong yan, everyone (except for the old ones and some others) went night cycling around ECP! We were supposed to reach back by 10, for the night activity (night activtiy comm rocks! haha) but i went back at around 9. The others came back at 10.30pm -.- So while waiting for them, sherry, jeanette, seng chiy and I started playing card games (alternating between dai di n bridge only) while the others were still watching 300.It was so fun! haha. Everyone who was partnered with sengchiy always lost :P lalala
Then the whole group came back, and night activity started :( it was kind of a CSI thing, and all the night comm ppl were suspects except for lim yang n lim qing (who supposedly couldn't make it) Moses was the best friend of Mr GECO (the victim who died of allergy), shiela the ex gf, kuan git n i, the couples who know Mr GECO in GECO n tricia the inspector... It was quite fun to see their reaction! haha esp when kuan git n moses mention the scadal of rae n yanliang! haha so funny! After we finished talking, we went to the other room to play a game of bridge (>< haha) while they discussed.
We went back and then they guessed the murderer. Strange thing is that those who guessed me/ kuangit used reference from my statement, "oily hair", when "oily hair" is part of nothing at all! haha... only wan hua caught the main thing which i said (lied) " i permed my hair in the afternoon, n i went to bathe cos my hair felt oily from the food." Everyone knows that after a hair perm, you can't wash your hair. Which meant that I was lying... haha...
but i was just trying to push the blame to me cos my "bf" killed Mr GECO by mistake -.-
After that, it was free time, and some ppl went cycling/roller blading again. Some went to play cards n some stayed to continue the movie marathon. We watched a comedy by zhou xing chi called sth like tang bo hu sth sth one. it was damn damn funny! we all couldn't stop laughing like mad. After it ended, some went to slp (cos it was kind of 1 plus am alrdy), some went over to the other room to play, some went out for a walk or cycling/ roller blading. In the end, there was only lim qing, rozie, moses, qin kai n i left. And we decided to watch Carmen (much better than the version i have -.-- but the Carmen is still ugly, not to mention old. Too old for carmen) The whole carmen was 3 hours long, and halfway thru, all of us were standing and walkign around... cos our legs were to tired, my butt was rlly painful from sitting too long o.O haha
I went to bathe halfway through (around 2 plus am) cos it was the boring part (though i rlly love operas). And we continued watching. Then i started complaining about being hungry, and rozie also started complaining abt being hungry too >< and moses was like " eh, i already won the biggest tummy award okay! If i haven't complained yet, you all also can't!"
but we still continued complaining ><
Then it ended, n limqing decided to go and slp, while rozie, qinkai moses n i decided to go eat breakfast (it was around 4.30am alrdy :P) Yan Liang tagged along too! So we slowly made our way to macs (which is a FAR distance) Halfway through, rozie went " eh, why didn't we use the car? that's rlly stupid leh, walk so long" N moses went "Wah, we're really in the chalet mode... so traditional, no cars at all!"
walao... and my legs were aching like siao?!~
still, we walked and saw some of ge ppl around, still nt slping. Anyway, after breakfast, we walked back, and met yuka, gg to walk home, shunta happily ps-ing her again. And it was so not safe, so rozie decided to drive her home (since it's so near). And so the old ones n i escorted yuka back home. ( it was around 5 plus 6 am alrdy). Moses drove, since there were 2 guys, so qin kai sat in front.
Then we went back, and found that one room was full of ppl playing all sorts of game. It was like a gambling den o.O haha. We went to the other room and continued watching movie :P So we watched The Bodyguard. It's a thai show which is damn damn funny as well! By the time it ended, it was 8.30 am alrdy (: so we all decided it was time to slp, and can avoid the amazing race too :P haha but in the end, amazing race was cancelled cos almost no one slpt till 8 am, so it became free n easyt period till bbq.
It was quite noisy in both rooms, so hazel n i decidedto go to her house to slp before gg back to the chalet. It was a rlly gd slp man! so shuang! Then we at around 3.30pm, i woke up, woke hazel up, at a little snack before heading back to the chalet. Then the bbq started, with us (the girls- geco guys are all useless!) starting the fire. Took damn long lo! but it started alright, and wanhua started bbqing chicken wings. The hazel, yuka n i became food testers. The chicken wings were TISSUS, but rlly nice. But the no of ppl there were rlly rlly little, with so much food... after the 1st round of bbq ended, most ppl who were staying (rlly little) went roller blading/ cycling again. The rest of us left were rlly little, and yuka, hazel, szemin, layting, sheila n i decided that we should roast mashmallows or the bbq won't be complete. After that, hazel, sze min, layting n yuka went into the room while only rozie, moses, julian, cheng ying n i were left outside, trying to finish bbqing all the food.
When there was only one plate and a little more chincken wings left, my parents came, n so i went home.
This chalet's so fun! only we didn't have night cycling cos they thought it was too dangerous, having so many young ones (us!) more than old ones.
Anyway, the round up of the year's over! Have a happy new year ahead!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
another round up
Yea, this is the round up of the other side. The emotional side of my life this year. And trust that i will not round up my academic life. *spits*
So it was a new thing altogether for me, that i've finally stepped into the unknown year, and that i'm leaving all the past wounds behind me forever. Or at least I thught so.
I was so full of anticipation! (which is part of what compelled me to create a blog again) Yes i deleted my previous ones.
I can't say i'm faced with disappointment or that i'm entire happy with my "new life". It was rather joyful, and for a while. i was really happy.
When there is too much of one side, there must always be a factor that would make the balance right again, or where is the climate in life eh? So things happened.
Well, it was not too bad at first, concert stress, block test stress, post concert depression etc etc etc. I could well handle them.
Things were not too bad, until it past the 1st half of the year, when the year is going into september. Things happened that could rip hearts apart, sending them to infernal hell, that can test the morals of people, that can show the true colours of friends, that can make one learn how to stand strong and fend for themselves.
So my emotion life had a great downfall, as I landed in the middle unknowingly, having the means to help, at the same time having the information to cause grief. And i gave grief. But things patched up slowly, allowing me to help her stand up again.
Not that I can say things fully patched up. What is done cannot be undone. Where the wound is healing, there'd always be a scar left to remind those of the memories. People can forgive, but not forget. Forgiving doesn't mean everything was over. The emotions are still there, lingering ever slightly longer.
Things had to get worse when the antagonizer refuse to see or for benifit of doubt, cannot see properly, continuing his/her slow and hurtful doings.
it's kind of all over now, i guess, physically i mean. But definietly not emotionally.
Then there's stress again as the NAC comeptition came, atthe same time adrenaline and a sense of joy, and finally a sense of belonging.
Not much I guess, but after this year, i'm quite sure i'm more emotionally bonded to a few people and a few groups. Don't know what i'd do without them.
So it was a new thing altogether for me, that i've finally stepped into the unknown year, and that i'm leaving all the past wounds behind me forever. Or at least I thught so.
I was so full of anticipation! (which is part of what compelled me to create a blog again) Yes i deleted my previous ones.
I can't say i'm faced with disappointment or that i'm entire happy with my "new life". It was rather joyful, and for a while. i was really happy.
When there is too much of one side, there must always be a factor that would make the balance right again, or where is the climate in life eh? So things happened.
Well, it was not too bad at first, concert stress, block test stress, post concert depression etc etc etc. I could well handle them.
Things were not too bad, until it past the 1st half of the year, when the year is going into september. Things happened that could rip hearts apart, sending them to infernal hell, that can test the morals of people, that can show the true colours of friends, that can make one learn how to stand strong and fend for themselves.
So my emotion life had a great downfall, as I landed in the middle unknowingly, having the means to help, at the same time having the information to cause grief. And i gave grief. But things patched up slowly, allowing me to help her stand up again.
Not that I can say things fully patched up. What is done cannot be undone. Where the wound is healing, there'd always be a scar left to remind those of the memories. People can forgive, but not forget. Forgiving doesn't mean everything was over. The emotions are still there, lingering ever slightly longer.
Things had to get worse when the antagonizer refuse to see or for benifit of doubt, cannot see properly, continuing his/her slow and hurtful doings.
it's kind of all over now, i guess, physically i mean. But definietly not emotionally.
Then there's stress again as the NAC comeptition came, atthe same time adrenaline and a sense of joy, and finally a sense of belonging.
Not much I guess, but after this year, i'm quite sure i'm more emotionally bonded to a few people and a few groups. Don't know what i'd do without them.
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Whew!
This year has passed with so many fun, experience, not to mention stressed- filled year.
True to say, this has been a year revolved around Co, by far the most in a year.
It's been a week since te last day of NAC, and sure, i'd have to admit i'm the biggest winner (spare my egoism ><), what with 2nd solo 2nd yqp 3rd geco... Aye, eventful indeed.
Starting with the earliest, it was this year's CNY and the performance of taiyang in the school hall. Nothing much to say, but i remember we were all scared cos we knew tai yan wasn't ready. One year later, and look at chun... it's hardly a full piece yet...
Then it was the NAFA performance in march which derek, josh, shi wee n i performed a yq quartet. Not really expeirence filled, but there were happy memories... and a sad one too, anyway, worth remembering.
After that was MOE CO CAMP, which was of course really fun, with happy memories to remember, not to mention the start of new friendships.
And the 1st BIG thing of the year, NYCO CONCERT '08, in july. I had a solo, and mrs ee did manage to make me squeeze out something presentable enough for stage. It was quite a success, and everyone was quite impressed. I thought i improved alot! Anyhow, my thinking became more mature (musicality wise).
After that would be the Esplanade performance in october, which was pretty much screwed up because I didn't really practise. Still, it was the 1st time i use a yq to accompany another instrument. And best, the soloist is not experience, which makes me learn more.
And the the holidays began, and there was the china trip to ningbo! It was not entirely related to co, in fact, not related at all, only i had to perform (yea, i didn't even touch my piece for a weeks to months) yq (as forced by mrs ee). but it was totally screwed cos no one bothered to listen and the yq was not tuned. But i didn't care. that wasn't any thing big.
After the china trip, i was whooshed immediately into the hustle and bustle of CO life in yqp and geco, and that's on top of practising my own solo pieces. That is because it was only 2 WEEKS to NAC competition, the bi-annual chinese musi competition.
The bad thing is that during that time, i'd lost touch of my prelims solo piece, and yqp was hardly ready, i would say only around 60% ready for strong competition and my ge grp was around 75% ready.
At least that was how i felt.
I didn't evne have time to think through anything at all! My time was dedicated to only three things.
Morning = dazu
Afternoon = xiao zu/ my solo (when there isn't cca)
Night = ge pracs / my solo (when there isn't ge prac)
I knew i could pull through till prelims cause the prelims pieces were fairly ready, so there was nothing much to worry about. But it was only after i got in to finals for ALL three categories, that i felt really stress...
my days became
morning = yqp
afternoon = my solo
night = ge prac
And most of the time when i had yqp pracs in the mornings, i'd end up sleeping in the afternoon cos i was really tired, and if i prac-ed my solo, i knew it'd go all wrong. the feeling and state of mind just isn't correct. So out of the one week i had to prac for my solo final, i spent only 3 days really practicing. Somehow somewhat, i still pulled through, and the result was really more than just satisfying, though on competition terms, not so... *censored*
Well, now that it's over, it was quite an experience too! i'd learn how to better handle time (which i kind of still suck at ><) and it was fun! definietly fun, and also emotion-filled.
The immediate thing after that was NYCO camp. I'd say this year's camp (and my last as an ny student!) was the best camp in all 3 years, only not in terms of fun and games. Especially the talking parts... exceptionally satisfying. At least i felt lighter after those talks (: ( or should i say bitching sessions? hmmm)
So these have passed. Things are beginning to start again. My life felt quite blanked out after NAC. It's like " eh? don't we have ge prac today?" kind of feel. So i was quite happy when i received an sms to go for ge prac one week after NAC. To practice taiyang perc. And the thing is, there are now officially 10 perc members in ge. Don't know whether to smile or cry...
Still, there is one last last activity related to CO that would round up the whole of this year's hustle and bustle. It's going to happen on the last 3 days of this year.. ge chalet! i'm really looking forward to it!
True to say, this has been a year revolved around Co, by far the most in a year.
It's been a week since te last day of NAC, and sure, i'd have to admit i'm the biggest winner (spare my egoism ><), what with 2nd solo 2nd yqp 3rd geco... Aye, eventful indeed.
Starting with the earliest, it was this year's CNY and the performance of taiyang in the school hall. Nothing much to say, but i remember we were all scared cos we knew tai yan wasn't ready. One year later, and look at chun... it's hardly a full piece yet...
Then it was the NAFA performance in march which derek, josh, shi wee n i performed a yq quartet. Not really expeirence filled, but there were happy memories... and a sad one too, anyway, worth remembering.
After that was MOE CO CAMP, which was of course really fun, with happy memories to remember, not to mention the start of new friendships.
And the 1st BIG thing of the year, NYCO CONCERT '08, in july. I had a solo, and mrs ee did manage to make me squeeze out something presentable enough for stage. It was quite a success, and everyone was quite impressed. I thought i improved alot! Anyhow, my thinking became more mature (musicality wise).
After that would be the Esplanade performance in october, which was pretty much screwed up because I didn't really practise. Still, it was the 1st time i use a yq to accompany another instrument. And best, the soloist is not experience, which makes me learn more.
And the the holidays began, and there was the china trip to ningbo! It was not entirely related to co, in fact, not related at all, only i had to perform (yea, i didn't even touch my piece for a weeks to months) yq (as forced by mrs ee). but it was totally screwed cos no one bothered to listen and the yq was not tuned. But i didn't care. that wasn't any thing big.
After the china trip, i was whooshed immediately into the hustle and bustle of CO life in yqp and geco, and that's on top of practising my own solo pieces. That is because it was only 2 WEEKS to NAC competition, the bi-annual chinese musi competition.
The bad thing is that during that time, i'd lost touch of my prelims solo piece, and yqp was hardly ready, i would say only around 60% ready for strong competition and my ge grp was around 75% ready.
At least that was how i felt.
I didn't evne have time to think through anything at all! My time was dedicated to only three things.
Morning = dazu
Afternoon = xiao zu/ my solo (when there isn't cca)
Night = ge pracs / my solo (when there isn't ge prac)
I knew i could pull through till prelims cause the prelims pieces were fairly ready, so there was nothing much to worry about. But it was only after i got in to finals for ALL three categories, that i felt really stress...
my days became
morning = yqp
afternoon = my solo
night = ge prac
And most of the time when i had yqp pracs in the mornings, i'd end up sleeping in the afternoon cos i was really tired, and if i prac-ed my solo, i knew it'd go all wrong. the feeling and state of mind just isn't correct. So out of the one week i had to prac for my solo final, i spent only 3 days really practicing. Somehow somewhat, i still pulled through, and the result was really more than just satisfying, though on competition terms, not so... *censored*
Well, now that it's over, it was quite an experience too! i'd learn how to better handle time (which i kind of still suck at ><) and it was fun! definietly fun, and also emotion-filled.
The immediate thing after that was NYCO camp. I'd say this year's camp (and my last as an ny student!) was the best camp in all 3 years, only not in terms of fun and games. Especially the talking parts... exceptionally satisfying. At least i felt lighter after those talks (: ( or should i say bitching sessions? hmmm)
So these have passed. Things are beginning to start again. My life felt quite blanked out after NAC. It's like " eh? don't we have ge prac today?" kind of feel. So i was quite happy when i received an sms to go for ge prac one week after NAC. To practice taiyang perc. And the thing is, there are now officially 10 perc members in ge. Don't know whether to smile or cry...
Still, there is one last last activity related to CO that would round up the whole of this year's hustle and bustle. It's going to happen on the last 3 days of this year.. ge chalet! i'm really looking forward to it!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
I'm officially back!
From all the activities that filled up my time from morning till night.
NYCO camp was rather fun, in some ways or other.
now that we had told her everything, i hope things turn out well next year.
NYCO camp was rather fun, in some ways or other.
now that we had told her everything, i hope things turn out well next year.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
ladida
that is a word okay... la-di-da (this is the proper way to write it)
anyway, LALALALA i'm in a singing mood now (: ... literally, not for real, u'll have to run if i start singing.
AHHHH, still can't believe it! Took the longest forever to register the fact that 2nd = 1st ><
and then i cried, which is rlly shocking (i was shocked that i cried o.O) cos i don't cry for happy stuff... weird.
must be the effect of waiting for 6 years for this... hmm, haha okay, enough crap.
i think i hugged my sister too hard.... i mean, i was looking at BOBO (fake name) announcing 2nd prize, hoping she'd call my name, and tada! but i didn't expect that.
then she did announce my name, and then the shocked face, happy of course, then she announce that there'd be no 1st.. and then the even greater shocked face.
i think my sis's shirt got horribly wet. oops ><
she was afterall shouting, " SPARE MY SHIRT! SPARE MY SHIRT!" haha so cute ;)
ahh, super tired, shall now go and slp. GD LUCK TO WHOEVER ELSE STILL COMPETING! (including me.. haah)
anyway, LALALALA i'm in a singing mood now (: ... literally, not for real, u'll have to run if i start singing.
AHHHH, still can't believe it! Took the longest forever to register the fact that 2nd = 1st ><
and then i cried, which is rlly shocking (i was shocked that i cried o.O) cos i don't cry for happy stuff... weird.
must be the effect of waiting for 6 years for this... hmm, haha okay, enough crap.
i think i hugged my sister too hard.... i mean, i was looking at BOBO (fake name) announcing 2nd prize, hoping she'd call my name, and tada! but i didn't expect that.
then she did announce my name, and then the shocked face, happy of course, then she announce that there'd be no 1st.. and then the even greater shocked face.
i think my sis's shirt got horribly wet. oops ><
she was afterall shouting, " SPARE MY SHIRT! SPARE MY SHIRT!" haha so cute ;)
ahh, super tired, shall now go and slp. GD LUCK TO WHOEVER ELSE STILL COMPETING! (including me.. haah)
Saturday, December 6, 2008
sigh
And i didn't exactly know how to react, only that i am really happy when the results were announced.
No 5, TPYWCCCOE (yea, long, so the acronym)!
No 3, YQP
No 2, (my chinese name)
HAHA yes, i'm quite happy, but then after the happiness died down, i got rlly stressed up and vexed. Now i have even more to trouble with even lesser time.
Great.
I am NOT a super woman, pls, NO.
But i tell myself I can pull through till the end. I will!!
Thanks everyone who smsed me gd luck before the competition, and thanks ppl who smsed me congrats after the results.
one week passed, finding me busy scuttling all about, and still running errands for people. While attempting to manage my time properly so i get to practice everything productively. i hope i won't fall sick!
wish me luck!
No 5, TPYWCCCOE (yea, long, so the acronym)!
No 3, YQP
No 2, (my chinese name)
HAHA yes, i'm quite happy, but then after the happiness died down, i got rlly stressed up and vexed. Now i have even more to trouble with even lesser time.
Great.
I am NOT a super woman, pls, NO.
But i tell myself I can pull through till the end. I will!!
Thanks everyone who smsed me gd luck before the competition, and thanks ppl who smsed me congrats after the results.
one week passed, finding me busy scuttling all about, and still running errands for people. While attempting to manage my time properly so i get to practice everything productively. i hope i won't fall sick!
wish me luck!
Friday, November 28, 2008
Tired
That's the only word that can conclude the whole of this week.
I'm rather busy (i mean VERY busy) these days cos its like OMG...4 more days to COMPETITION and i'm still not into that mood yet :(
totally screwed up tonight's performance... stupid me :( thought i hit the paigu alrdy.
AND today was really tiring. Not that other days weren't. I mean, when u've got nothing to do (cos obviously your instruments are not available) people ask favours from you, and you oblige cos u would rather NOT sit and rot to death. So there you go running around like mice doing errands for everyone.
AND the most stupid thing i've ever done is to agree to participate in ALL 3 CATEGORIES. wow, i must have thought i was a superwoman. Now i dont even have the time to prac my solo pieces... AREN'T those the MOST IMPORTANT ones?!?!?!?
bloody shit.
and WHEN you're so busy and all head-over-heels alrdy, your section decides to pangseh you when you need them most (moving instruments like TIMPANI) and let you die yourself. What is worse? They're all older than me, and there i go looking after them like their mommy. I SO want to scold them!!! but when i see them, i just can't say it out. YUCKS!! i was so looking forward to that lecture about responsibility i had in mind :( No wonder they wanted an SL for perc.
BUT out of all these, i realise that being a percussionist (THIS IS TOTALLY IN MY POINT OF VIEW, SO NO ONE HAS TO AGREE WITH ME), the most happy times are not during practises or trying out new scores or being with your section and trying to bond.
It's when we move instruments and feel very tired, but accomplished at the same time, and that gratitude for those who are willing to help.
It's when you know you're going to suffer but still do it because its your responsibility, yet enjoying it at the same time because you whole section is with you, occasionally shooting sarcastic or funny remarks/ sentences that makes you feel lively and gets your mind off the tiring process.
It's when after all that, you know you sacrificed the most time in the whole orchestra, but still will not complain because u know that's what we, the percussionist have to do since the 1st day we decide to learn percussion.
Aye, words can't describe how i feel, but its getting late, and i'm getting hungry from all that running and hauling instruments (worse than weights okay), and i have to wake up early tmr.
Wish me luck!
I'm rather busy (i mean VERY busy) these days cos its like OMG...4 more days to COMPETITION and i'm still not into that mood yet :(
totally screwed up tonight's performance... stupid me :( thought i hit the paigu alrdy.
AND today was really tiring. Not that other days weren't. I mean, when u've got nothing to do (cos obviously your instruments are not available) people ask favours from you, and you oblige cos u would rather NOT sit and rot to death. So there you go running around like mice doing errands for everyone.
AND the most stupid thing i've ever done is to agree to participate in ALL 3 CATEGORIES. wow, i must have thought i was a superwoman. Now i dont even have the time to prac my solo pieces... AREN'T those the MOST IMPORTANT ones?!?!?!?
bloody shit.
and WHEN you're so busy and all head-over-heels alrdy, your section decides to pangseh you when you need them most (moving instruments like TIMPANI) and let you die yourself. What is worse? They're all older than me, and there i go looking after them like their mommy. I SO want to scold them!!! but when i see them, i just can't say it out. YUCKS!! i was so looking forward to that lecture about responsibility i had in mind :( No wonder they wanted an SL for perc.
BUT out of all these, i realise that being a percussionist (THIS IS TOTALLY IN MY POINT OF VIEW, SO NO ONE HAS TO AGREE WITH ME), the most happy times are not during practises or trying out new scores or being with your section and trying to bond.
It's when we move instruments and feel very tired, but accomplished at the same time, and that gratitude for those who are willing to help.
It's when you know you're going to suffer but still do it because its your responsibility, yet enjoying it at the same time because you whole section is with you, occasionally shooting sarcastic or funny remarks/ sentences that makes you feel lively and gets your mind off the tiring process.
It's when after all that, you know you sacrificed the most time in the whole orchestra, but still will not complain because u know that's what we, the percussionist have to do since the 1st day we decide to learn percussion.
Aye, words can't describe how i feel, but its getting late, and i'm getting hungry from all that running and hauling instruments (worse than weights okay), and i have to wake up early tmr.
Wish me luck!
Saturday, November 8, 2008
days are counting
OH NO!!! its like the 8th day of this ningbo trip, and its the 1st day of winter.
right.
how fun.
Just when we were getting along fine with the weather here, the season decides to play a trick on us and make us suffer withonly a few really thin pieces of clothing, CLIMBING some NEVER ENDING mountain in the blistering rain and howling wind. SO FUN.
But on top of that, i've just seen the email wah wah sent, and realised that its ONLY A MERE 24 DAYS TO COMPETITON. and guess what. Out of 3 of my categories, 2 are less than 50% ready, 1 is less than 75% ready. I am so confident to go on stage already. Thanks everyone, thanks.
On a happier note, i've made 3 new friends, aka my room mates, aka emma, kim and jessica. And of course, bought erm 12 boxes of pocky and peijoy (all under glico) whose flavours can never be found in singapore.
Ahh damn scared damn scared. BUT, as for now i shall cast all my worries away and enjoy the last 6 days of my trip in china.
Finally, i wish all a happy day ahead melting in singapore and work hard!
right.
how fun.
Just when we were getting along fine with the weather here, the season decides to play a trick on us and make us suffer withonly a few really thin pieces of clothing, CLIMBING some NEVER ENDING mountain in the blistering rain and howling wind. SO FUN.
But on top of that, i've just seen the email wah wah sent, and realised that its ONLY A MERE 24 DAYS TO COMPETITON. and guess what. Out of 3 of my categories, 2 are less than 50% ready, 1 is less than 75% ready. I am so confident to go on stage already. Thanks everyone, thanks.
On a happier note, i've made 3 new friends, aka my room mates, aka emma, kim and jessica. And of course, bought erm 12 boxes of pocky and peijoy (all under glico) whose flavours can never be found in singapore.
Ahh damn scared damn scared. BUT, as for now i shall cast all my worries away and enjoy the last 6 days of my trip in china.
Finally, i wish all a happy day ahead melting in singapore and work hard!
Friday, October 31, 2008
leavin'
Hi!
Bye!
and in around 13 hours, i'll leave for shanghai, then to ningbo...
Sayonara! my belovoed friends and family! 14 days will pass quite swiftly and quietly and soon i'll be back!
yup, never expected, though i did pray so hard, it probably became a backshot
that my dear teacher will be on the same trip as me o.O srprising, yet not so.
then again, i'll enjoy myself!!!
BYE
Bye!
and in around 13 hours, i'll leave for shanghai, then to ningbo...
Sayonara! my belovoed friends and family! 14 days will pass quite swiftly and quietly and soon i'll be back!
yup, never expected, though i did pray so hard, it probably became a backshot
that my dear teacher will be on the same trip as me o.O srprising, yet not so.
then again, i'll enjoy myself!!!
BYE
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Raindrops are dropping on my head
Hm... actually, putting aside all the feuds and grudges,
she's a person with good charateristics too.
At least when she does things, she puts in all her effort
At least she tries
At least she is compliant when needed
At least she volunteers to do things others don't want to
At least she accepts criticism
It just that little- which may become a large extend- thing the sets her apart from being likable isn't it?
aye... the is the world. unfair and unjust.
When people get the first impression, they look immediately at the bad points first. That's cause we're all acustomed to spoting more bad habits that good ones
its like we dont praise ppl for picking up a piece of paper on the ground
we dont praise people for being helpful
we dont praise people for being considerate
we take these for granted
so we pick on little oddities like pointing at people straight in the face
being bossy
flaunting
too giggly
and whatever else faults we can find.
are we humans so pessimistic?
it's time we look from the other side
she's a person with good charateristics too.
At least when she does things, she puts in all her effort
At least she tries
At least she is compliant when needed
At least she volunteers to do things others don't want to
At least she accepts criticism
It just that little- which may become a large extend- thing the sets her apart from being likable isn't it?
aye... the is the world. unfair and unjust.
When people get the first impression, they look immediately at the bad points first. That's cause we're all acustomed to spoting more bad habits that good ones
its like we dont praise ppl for picking up a piece of paper on the ground
we dont praise people for being helpful
we dont praise people for being considerate
we take these for granted
so we pick on little oddities like pointing at people straight in the face
being bossy
flaunting
too giggly
and whatever else faults we can find.
are we humans so pessimistic?
it's time we look from the other side
Saturday, October 4, 2008
When dawn comes
EE, haha today's performance was soo sucky :P but still, haha, its a total waste of time.
But thanks julian n derek for sending me such LAME good luck sms (:
D: wish you
J: good luck
(: haha (ahem i tot someone will go today one ?!?!?!?!)
And thanks Denise mum, who's ever so hip and cool for hepling me to get my hair done and force some makeup unto my face (: hahahahaha damn cool can!
OO, some yqp reps celebrated my birthday for me on thurs! TY!! haha and i love the present indirectly for my bear (: NBA FTW!
Pssst: my sis and baby cousin secretly loves me to bits (:
Psssst: i secretly like them, but not to bits (:
But thanks julian n derek for sending me such LAME good luck sms (:
D: wish you
J: good luck
(: haha (ahem i tot someone will go today one ?!?!?!?!)
And thanks Denise mum, who's ever so hip and cool for hepling me to get my hair done and force some makeup unto my face (: hahahahaha damn cool can!
OO, some yqp reps celebrated my birthday for me on thurs! TY!! haha and i love the present indirectly for my bear (: NBA FTW!
Pssst: my sis and baby cousin secretly loves me to bits (:
Psssst: i secretly like them, but not to bits (:
Monday, September 29, 2008
Cast your worries away
set aside all the sad things that happened, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! hahaha finally! and i m so excited to get my ic made! Thanks ppl for wishing me a happy birthday!
listening to soothing music (i suggest brahms symphony no 4 mvt 1 or lord of the rings: return of the king, return of the king or the grey heavens) and watching youtube vids on russell peters is amazingly calming and makes people really happy no matter what! try it, topped off with the free pocky that will appear by your side if you bought it earlier on this afternoon!
Bus at night
And he walks, slowly, bidding his time. Then he chooses his seat- beside a girl of about 15 years, probably going for some lesson.
The bus started, and drive off, towards its destination.
He place his hand across his lap, and then he starts, creeping slowly, inch by inch, towards the girl sitting next to him. And the, the outstretched hand made contact with her thigh. Oblivious, the girl continued to stare off into space, thinking of the day's events. And he decided to stretch even further, carassing on the way.
Then the girl felt a tingling sensation along her left thigh, and looked down, and saw a hand stretched out, touching her thighs. She shifted her sitting position nearer to the window, and continued staring into space.
The tingling sensation was still there. She looked down again, and realised that the hand was still there. taking a peek at the man sitting beside her, he seemed oblivous to the happenings, and was smiling lightly at some distant memories.
The girl shrugged, and put her bag on top of her lap, hoping the hand would go away, but the sensation was still there, and getting nearer to a certain destination. The man, still staring into space, did not seemed bothered at all. The girl became really really uncomfortable, and was really afraid.
Frustrated, the girl stood up and left at the nearest bus stop, choosing to walk the rest of the way.
And it had to happen to me just one day before my birthday?! @_Q#)(U_@($*UY_(HBNO@I{#%+_#*@#(*&%!(*#@&^!*(&#@^!@!!@$&*#^^#@njf(#@$(!@#^&*@*
WHAT THE FUCK
The bus started, and drive off, towards its destination.
He place his hand across his lap, and then he starts, creeping slowly, inch by inch, towards the girl sitting next to him. And the, the outstretched hand made contact with her thigh. Oblivious, the girl continued to stare off into space, thinking of the day's events. And he decided to stretch even further, carassing on the way.
Then the girl felt a tingling sensation along her left thigh, and looked down, and saw a hand stretched out, touching her thighs. She shifted her sitting position nearer to the window, and continued staring into space.
The tingling sensation was still there. She looked down again, and realised that the hand was still there. taking a peek at the man sitting beside her, he seemed oblivous to the happenings, and was smiling lightly at some distant memories.
The girl shrugged, and put her bag on top of her lap, hoping the hand would go away, but the sensation was still there, and getting nearer to a certain destination. The man, still staring into space, did not seemed bothered at all. The girl became really really uncomfortable, and was really afraid.
Frustrated, the girl stood up and left at the nearest bus stop, choosing to walk the rest of the way.
And it had to happen to me just one day before my birthday?! @_Q#)(U_@($*UY_(HBNO@I{#%+_#*@#(*&%!(*#@&^!*(&#@^!@!!@$&*#^^#@njf(#@$(!@#^&*@*
WHAT THE FUCK
Saturday, September 27, 2008
In a land far far away
Aye......
i just don't know how people can come up with such lame things to do.
It's wasting time, and effortless, considering how one party has no acquitted nor forced feelings for the other.
Agreeing to it is just because that's being nice, typical nature though.
So why the trouble?
i just don't know how people can come up with such lame things to do.
It's wasting time, and effortless, considering how one party has no acquitted nor forced feelings for the other.
Agreeing to it is just because that's being nice, typical nature though.
So why the trouble?
Monday, September 22, 2008
Taking a walk in the park alone at night
okay, so i'm back... yet again, another sleepless night.
I'll now promise myself i won't cease to exist in the blog world unless I get to places without computers.
I promise myself i won't cease to exist in the blog world inless I get to places without computers.
SIGH... what it takes to make you understand that i'm on you side, and u can just pour everything out
what does it take for you to understand that things are better said as early as possible rather than being delayed.
things are certainly not the same anymore. and i rlly hope you'd come to your senses that we may still be a little pissed and disappointed, but we rlly dont mind at all. stop that fuss about hesitating already...
i have nothing else to say, unless you want the truth...
meanwhile, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL!!!
I'll now promise myself i won't cease to exist in the blog world unless I get to places without computers.
I promise myself i won't cease to exist in the blog world inless I get to places without computers.
SIGH... what it takes to make you understand that i'm on you side, and u can just pour everything out
what does it take for you to understand that things are better said as early as possible rather than being delayed.
things are certainly not the same anymore. and i rlly hope you'd come to your senses that we may still be a little pissed and disappointed, but we rlly dont mind at all. stop that fuss about hesitating already...
i have nothing else to say, unless you want the truth...
meanwhile, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL!!!
Friday, September 19, 2008
When you smile to me
lets give ourselves another LONG sigh, longer than the one b4
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
okay, now i feel better. Of course, things have been cleared, explained and understood. But i still feel as i would and i will. Then the atmosphere is still brighter now, that we all know everything, and we all are fine and okay... somewhat, in a sense.
Nope, i dont feel sympathy for you at all, because you really dont deserve it, but i do understand. It's totally 2 different things, so sorry.
Thanks for trying so hard to be so optimistic and happy about it. You made my day (:
Alas, my time in the realm of blog has ceased, and i'm afraid, that under normal circumstances, this blog will be hibernating from the moment i press the publish post button till 16th october.
meanwhile, happy mugging!
Thursday, September 18, 2008
When two things clashes
And things went from something simple and pure, to something a little shocking, to something freaking complex, and finally to something simple, pure, shocking, freaking complex AND irritatingly frustratingly bitch.
You have no idea how to put it into words at all.
You have no idea how much I feel like breaking down if not for the fact that i'm not a crier.
You have no idea how much it hurts just to think of it... cos someone else will get hurt too, and i feel for that person just a tad too much.
You have NO BLOODY IDEA AT ALL!
I know you dont feel as bad as I do, you dont feel like tearing yourself apart, you don't feel like crying, you don't feel the weight of pain and hurt i am feeling for myself and her. I DO.
because I care. I care so much for her. i choose friendship over temporary happiness. i cant stand having another ______. I cant bear the pain yet again. I don't want to lose her as a friend anymore, after what we'd had been through.
i'm so sorry... so sorry... give me some of your pain, let me share the burden with you...
You have no idea how to put it into words at all.
You have no idea how much I feel like breaking down if not for the fact that i'm not a crier.
You have no idea how much it hurts just to think of it... cos someone else will get hurt too, and i feel for that person just a tad too much.
You have NO BLOODY IDEA AT ALL!
I know you dont feel as bad as I do, you dont feel like tearing yourself apart, you don't feel like crying, you don't feel the weight of pain and hurt i am feeling for myself and her. I DO.
because I care. I care so much for her. i choose friendship over temporary happiness. i cant stand having another ______. I cant bear the pain yet again. I don't want to lose her as a friend anymore, after what we'd had been through.
i'm so sorry... so sorry... give me some of your pain, let me share the burden with you...
Monday, September 15, 2008
We are still together
gives a long sigh..
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and things are now clear and explained and understood. Let it out if you must, let out all the pain. Of course you'll feel the pain, and hiding it is not a good solution at all. Please believe me on this... i'd have too much experience, yet doing it over and over again.
I knew the moment I told you, I'd regret it.
Not because you should not know.
but the pain i can't bring myself to inflict upon you...
I know you'll get hurt, and still act as though nothing has happened. Silly... cry, cry out for as long and as much as you want to... dont stuff everything in you tiny little porcelain heart... it's going to be more unbearable, and more untolerable... it is going to be a torture to yourself, a self suffering process.... Just cry. Let everything out.
I was never a crier. Even when things go emotionally wrong... because I have always believed that no matter what, I must always be happy, face anything positively, and hide the ugly side of me.
So every single thing that hurts me was stuffed, slowly, one by one, into my heart. And eventually, some became numbed and forgotten, some stayed on like a knife in the waist.
Gradually, it became really full, and exploding. Yet i continued stuffing, telling myself that i'm stronger than before, and i can handle. I'm a strong person.
And the heart just burst.
I didn't know... the feeling was really bad, especially in the midst of accepting and exploring a new emotion. It ruined everything. On the day i was supposed to go for my 1st CIP at renci, i sat at the void deck of some unknown block somewhere in toa payoh, i cried. Cried out all the unjust and everything that has happened to me, cried out all the unhappiness, cried out all the mixed emotions... ... ... ... for 2 whole hour, i just sat there and cried.
And I left to meet my brother for a cheering up session.
Don't care if you'll feel silly after that. I knew i would, I did feel silly, but i still cried. It really helps. And trust me just this once.
_________________________________________________________________
Today was a fun day!! After HMP, we had an indian music workshop, and voila! those ppl were the same ones i saw a few times in performances at CCs and functions!
AND the most surprising thing is that they're actually quite closely related to me in some way! hahaha
1stly, Mr Tan, (i'll address as daddy) is denise mum's brother!! aha, the world is small. So that means krsna (sita player) n govin 9dunno the spelling, but the tabla player) are denise's cousins! haha so cool! Ah haha, denise's family is a musical family!
Denise= chinese
Krsna= indian
Dexter (violin dude, cousin of krsna)= western
ahaha, so COOL (:
2ndly, daddy used to learn form mrs ee's dad (pipa i think) and they were friends since young! WHOO , double cool.
This once again proves that the world is soooo small, esp after the wei lao shi n julian's uncle thing. And that julian's friend is jinglong and er... some others, who are also wei laos shi's student, blah blah blah!
THE WORLD IS SO SMALL
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and things are now clear and explained and understood. Let it out if you must, let out all the pain. Of course you'll feel the pain, and hiding it is not a good solution at all. Please believe me on this... i'd have too much experience, yet doing it over and over again.
I knew the moment I told you, I'd regret it.
Not because you should not know.
but the pain i can't bring myself to inflict upon you...
I know you'll get hurt, and still act as though nothing has happened. Silly... cry, cry out for as long and as much as you want to... dont stuff everything in you tiny little porcelain heart... it's going to be more unbearable, and more untolerable... it is going to be a torture to yourself, a self suffering process.... Just cry. Let everything out.
I was never a crier. Even when things go emotionally wrong... because I have always believed that no matter what, I must always be happy, face anything positively, and hide the ugly side of me.
So every single thing that hurts me was stuffed, slowly, one by one, into my heart. And eventually, some became numbed and forgotten, some stayed on like a knife in the waist.
Gradually, it became really full, and exploding. Yet i continued stuffing, telling myself that i'm stronger than before, and i can handle. I'm a strong person.
And the heart just burst.
I didn't know... the feeling was really bad, especially in the midst of accepting and exploring a new emotion. It ruined everything. On the day i was supposed to go for my 1st CIP at renci, i sat at the void deck of some unknown block somewhere in toa payoh, i cried. Cried out all the unjust and everything that has happened to me, cried out all the unhappiness, cried out all the mixed emotions... ... ... ... for 2 whole hour, i just sat there and cried.
And I left to meet my brother for a cheering up session.
Don't care if you'll feel silly after that. I knew i would, I did feel silly, but i still cried. It really helps. And trust me just this once.
_________________________________________________________________
Today was a fun day!! After HMP, we had an indian music workshop, and voila! those ppl were the same ones i saw a few times in performances at CCs and functions!
AND the most surprising thing is that they're actually quite closely related to me in some way! hahaha
1stly, Mr Tan, (i'll address as daddy) is denise mum's brother!! aha, the world is small. So that means krsna (sita player) n govin 9dunno the spelling, but the tabla player) are denise's cousins! haha so cool! Ah haha, denise's family is a musical family!
Denise= chinese
Krsna= indian
Dexter (violin dude, cousin of krsna)= western
ahaha, so COOL (:
2ndly, daddy used to learn form mrs ee's dad (pipa i think) and they were friends since young! WHOO , double cool.
This once again proves that the world is soooo small, esp after the wei lao shi n julian's uncle thing. And that julian's friend is jinglong and er... some others, who are also wei laos shi's student, blah blah blah!
THE WORLD IS SO SMALL
Sunday, September 14, 2008
When the world falls, and you're not dead, someone's protecting you
Ahhh. and MAF passed. And i didnt feel the MAF atmosphere this year.
Cause of this = being cooped up at home and refusing to go out, PLUS, sleeping most of the day away.
Anyway, tonight was qutie fun!! having celebrated my chinese birthday (yes, exactly on MAF (: hurray) with my family in a more than usual way
Usual = mooncakes and more mooncakes
More than usual= loads of mooncakes, a real cake and present (:
yupp, ah well, i'm 15 come on... aaannnd i love this year's present so far (: IPOD NANO! the cute almost squarish one!! yay! haha, aunt got it free, and decides to give me cos i'm the only one who knows how to operate new techno stuff... yea, my sis asks me too o.O
Thanks ppl for wishing me a happy chinese birthday, thou as i'd have said, i find chinese birthdays less significant than english birthdays... but still, i do cherish this birthday celebration! (cos they aint celebrating my english birthday- no time)
particularly because my exams are there... o.O sadly. okay, done dlding songs into my ipod, shall go slp (once again) le!
And, happy MAF! hoep its not too late
Cause of this = being cooped up at home and refusing to go out, PLUS, sleeping most of the day away.
Anyway, tonight was qutie fun!! having celebrated my chinese birthday (yes, exactly on MAF (: hurray) with my family in a more than usual way
Usual = mooncakes and more mooncakes
More than usual= loads of mooncakes, a real cake and present (:
yupp, ah well, i'm 15 come on... aaannnd i love this year's present so far (: IPOD NANO! the cute almost squarish one!! yay! haha, aunt got it free, and decides to give me cos i'm the only one who knows how to operate new techno stuff... yea, my sis asks me too o.O
Thanks ppl for wishing me a happy chinese birthday, thou as i'd have said, i find chinese birthdays less significant than english birthdays... but still, i do cherish this birthday celebration! (cos they aint celebrating my english birthday- no time)
particularly because my exams are there... o.O sadly. okay, done dlding songs into my ipod, shall go slp (once again) le!
And, happy MAF! hoep its not too late
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
I now place my trust in you, safe guard it
Ahhhh... staying up till 11.11 pm and doing maths while listening to emo songs and music works is very nostalgic... and ppl starts emoing here. Not that i am going to emo... i am not gg to emo cos i dont like to emo.
I mean, i dont sit and cry when i feel depressed, I just keep probing at the problems laid out in front of me. Is emoing all about sitting there and not doing anything to make the situation better? Okay, maybe to take a break, but its abit unconstructive.
and i definitely dont get overly frustrated or shut down when i get stressed... maybe i'm abit weird, but i'd start walking about not doing anything and then after 1 minute, decides to rumage the cupboards for food (: then thinking that the food'd get me fatter, i'd put all back, and go back to doing nothing. And the cycle repeats after a while o.o haha thats me (:
okay, IL DIVO is definitely superb. so is jj and classics from western to chinese.
my first signs of frankness for YOU (if u read this)- the i-m-supposed-to-confess-to-you-thing-about-someone
- that feeling's been there since i dont know... forever?!
- its just the way things are being handled... i dont like the style and the thinking.
- and eventually the source of all things done (brain? haha) cos it affects everything.
- and maybe sometimes the way sentences are delivered.
-and finally the overall feeling i get, from speech to actions to everything.
SO its definitely NEGATIVE from the start. sorry, no offence. not that i want u to feel hurt.
I mean, i dont sit and cry when i feel depressed, I just keep probing at the problems laid out in front of me. Is emoing all about sitting there and not doing anything to make the situation better? Okay, maybe to take a break, but its abit unconstructive.
and i definitely dont get overly frustrated or shut down when i get stressed... maybe i'm abit weird, but i'd start walking about not doing anything and then after 1 minute, decides to rumage the cupboards for food (: then thinking that the food'd get me fatter, i'd put all back, and go back to doing nothing. And the cycle repeats after a while o.o haha thats me (:
okay, IL DIVO is definitely superb. so is jj and classics from western to chinese.
my first signs of frankness for YOU (if u read this)- the i-m-supposed-to-confess-to-you-thing-about-someone
- that feeling's been there since i dont know... forever?!
- its just the way things are being handled... i dont like the style and the thinking.
- and eventually the source of all things done (brain? haha) cos it affects everything.
- and maybe sometimes the way sentences are delivered.
-and finally the overall feeling i get, from speech to actions to everything.
SO its definitely NEGATIVE from the start. sorry, no offence. not that i want u to feel hurt.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
when time comes, I'll tell you everything
I shall make my stand clear.
--> If you are expecting to see an overly long post concerning MAF, don't be too disappointed, because if you stare intently enough at your screen, it will appear. Yea just like that *snaps*, in a few thousand years.
-->Nope, I am not emo. Okay I was, because I was under some influences and was under going a total 180 degree change emotionally and mentally beacuse of somethings and people. Nut not now, and my previous post was not meant to be emo-.-... its just nostalgic, especially when you're blogging in the middle of the morning.
-->Yes I am a very sad girl who is sad and deprived of sleep because of many things. You can ask me why, but i'm not saying here *censored*
-->If you're planning to invite me over for a meal, please make sure you have enough food. You'd be surprise at how much I eat. Not that i can help it *coughs becauseofsomepeople coughs*
-->I'm willing to be your "ear" if you need*.
* Applies to only people I know
-->If there's an emergency or a sudden urgent thing u need to contact me about, i'll be available from 6am - 2am (weekdays) and 11am - 2am (weekends). Of course, including the time I need to attend lessons.
--> If you are expecting to see an overly long post concerning MAF, don't be too disappointed, because if you stare intently enough at your screen, it will appear. Yea just like that *snaps*, in a few thousand years.
-->Nope, I am not emo. Okay I was, because I was under some influences and was under going a total 180 degree change emotionally and mentally beacuse of somethings and people. Nut not now, and my previous post was not meant to be emo-.-... its just nostalgic, especially when you're blogging in the middle of the morning.
-->Yes I am a very sad girl who is sad and deprived of sleep because of many things. You can ask me why, but i'm not saying here *censored*
-->If you're planning to invite me over for a meal, please make sure you have enough food. You'd be surprise at how much I eat. Not that i can help it *coughs becauseofsomepeople coughs*
-->I'm willing to be your "ear" if you need*.
* Applies to only people I know
-->If there's an emergency or a sudden urgent thing u need to contact me about, i'll be available from 6am - 2am (weekdays) and 11am - 2am (weekends). Of course, including the time I need to attend lessons.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Are we on the same line?
Things are so different now...
give us three years of segregation, and this is what u get. a gift from london, and a gift hand made. Good job, we really work that hard to stay as the best friends ever, and i love it. But give us one more year...
will my heart still stick to you? I do think so, but as more friends come in, i find myself getting attracted to those people... even if we do make an effort to go out together.
I feel fondness for you, but its the communication thing that's getting in the way. We interact too little... putting myself further and further away from you
our connection will still be intact, strong as ever.
I'm sorry to say that my other party of friends are closer to me, maybe because they were around to help me when i most needed some support? And the times we spent were simply amazing times. Up till now, the outings with them count for at least 1/4 of the top 10 best times in my life SO FAR...
so that explains right?
That i'll choose them over you if there's a clash activities
That i'll be choose to go out with them even if you asked first
That i'll be willing to sacrifice myself for them more than you, which is already loads
And the list may continue, but writing them out just makes me feel like a total jerk.
And its not good for our relationship too...
Even so, i'll still stay by your side when u need me. You know i'll give in to what u want everytime. You know that you're still the best buddy i've ever had, and still is. You know that i'll never grow tired of you.
give us three years of segregation, and this is what u get. a gift from london, and a gift hand made. Good job, we really work that hard to stay as the best friends ever, and i love it. But give us one more year...
will my heart still stick to you? I do think so, but as more friends come in, i find myself getting attracted to those people... even if we do make an effort to go out together.
I feel fondness for you, but its the communication thing that's getting in the way. We interact too little... putting myself further and further away from you
our connection will still be intact, strong as ever.
I'm sorry to say that my other party of friends are closer to me, maybe because they were around to help me when i most needed some support? And the times we spent were simply amazing times. Up till now, the outings with them count for at least 1/4 of the top 10 best times in my life SO FAR...
so that explains right?
That i'll choose them over you if there's a clash activities
That i'll be choose to go out with them even if you asked first
That i'll be willing to sacrifice myself for them more than you, which is already loads
And the list may continue, but writing them out just makes me feel like a total jerk.
And its not good for our relationship too...
Even so, i'll still stay by your side when u need me. You know i'll give in to what u want everytime. You know that you're still the best buddy i've ever had, and still is. You know that i'll never grow tired of you.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Once upon a time
there come a time when u have so many things you want to blog about, yet not having the time and courage to do so. Yet when you've finally got some time to blog, you dont feel like blogging anymore, cos you dont know how to write or start.
and in such instances, you're always busy chatting to someone on msn or phone... and things get livelier, so you even more dont want to blog about emo and sad stuff... thats always the trick isnt it?
sigh, i tend to become rlly reflective and emo when i'm alone outside during night time. wonder y... and then i'd think of one person or thing to find solace and peace, so that i dont start tearing.
lalala, i'm gg to ningbo, shanghai, suzhou... with Mrs Ee!! ahahahaha, don't know how to react
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Hush baby, mummy's here
When you were 5, mummy brought you out for an outing to the zoo. You see an ice cream vendor, and you pointed at it, facing your mummy : "mummy, i want!"
but mummy says "no".
you cry.
mummy softens up, and got you your favourite ice-cream. cookies and cream
and you smiled radiantly.
This is happiness.
When you were 8, you went out shopping with your mum on a typical saturday, to paragon, OG, takashimaya... you walked past toys r us, and u see a big monopoly set. You stared at mummy with that big teary eyes, pointing at that, saying "mummy! i want!"
mummy looked at the price, turned around with a concentrated look, and said "no, wait till there's discount."
you started begging, tears almost coming out, "please mama!"
mummy looked at it again, turned around and sighed. 15 minutes later, you skipped out of toys r us, with mummy behind u carrying a big plastic bag.
This is happiness.
When you turned 12, your friend called you and invited you to a birthday party. You took a breathe and asked mummy if u could go.
mummy drank a cup of water, looked at the calendar and said, " but its 2 months to PSLE. You should be studying now."
you started whining, " MMMMmmmm, mummy, please? i'll study after that! Please? please? please?"
mummy looked at you," only if you really promise. If you don't study when u come back, there will be no more parties."
you agreed hastily, " yes, i will! i promise!"
And you went for the party and had loads of fun.
This is happiness.
And now you turn 15, and you went for an outing with your friends. You asked your mum if you could stay out for dinner, your mum looked at you and said yes. You smiled, and continued talking on the phone. The day came, and soon, you finished watching the movie. You settled down with your bunch of friends and was about to eat your dinner, when your mum called and shouted at you ," COME HOME NOW. Didn't i ask you to come home at 8?!"
you were dumb-founded, "er, no."
she snapped back, " come home now!"
and sadly, you went, feeling all sad, pissed and everything but happy.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
Its a small world after all
LALALA a nice day for a nice person (:
no, not talking abt the weather, which obviously spoilt my mood. And a lady with such fat and bulky ass ( the largest i'd ever saw) fell when the bus jerked, and sat straight down HARD on my lap! WTFFFFFFFFF and turning around to apologize, her GINORMOUS bag turned and slapped me right in the face.
@P#%U(*+)IHE$N@Lk#et(g(i@$hket
i think my bone's cracked open
happy early national day!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
mummy i don't want to go help them!
happiness vs responsibilities...
these issues will come to anyone sooner or later eh? and no matter how much you push back the decision, you'll still have to face it in the end.
indecisiveness causes too much harm.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
How much time do you need, its entirely up to you
dhoby ghaut -> chinatown -> somerset -> cityhall -> bugis -> orchard -> Pasir Ris/Kembangan
yepp, that's how much u waste on transport when u go out with your brother on a typical weekend. PLUS the fact that it's completely fruitLESS -.-
but thanks anyway for brightening my day. and i'd have said, its all about choosing what is more important at that specific timing.
today was quite successful too ok! at nafa i mean :P HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. all about connections
yepp, that's how much u waste on transport when u go out with your brother on a typical weekend. PLUS the fact that it's completely fruitLESS -.-
but thanks anyway for brightening my day. and i'd have said, its all about choosing what is more important at that specific timing.
today was quite successful too ok! at nafa i mean :P HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. all about connections
Thursday, July 24, 2008
life is always different without you
woo hoo!!!!
i actually survived to see the light of today! (thou its raining ) its a MIRACLE!
oh yea, uh huh, oo sha! (dance some funny chicken dance)
ok! so, I LOVE YQP!!!!! ah! hahaha
yea, just went to watch Batman: The Dark Knight with my section mates today, to celebrate end of blocks n e success of nyco concert! yay!
and now i m slacking away, dunno wad to do, feeling empty all of a sudden... sighs... post concert depression. happens all the time! argh!
sheesh, and now i m depressed over things that will happen 3 months down the road... yea, guess it correctly, and you get your imaginary brownie ice-cream with complimentary movie tickets for 2*
* terms and conditions apply
nope, not telling yet. wait till the time is right. ok, dunno wad to post... shall end here! bye!
Saturday, July 19, 2008
丝竹琴韵 3
ok. this is to prevent ppl frm dying after looking at the screen too long. cutting it into 4-4 sections wld be better. yupp. 3 posts dedicated to nyco concert stuff. so this will be the details of the happenings on 18th July 2008. form my pov of course.
The night before
yupp, slept accurately at 10.30pm... cos i reached home at 8 plus and i had to tiao qin the last time before the BIG day. after tiao-ing the bottom half, i got so damn tired, i decided to slp, n tiao the nxt day... wonder how ppl just couldn't slp! hahaha. and then again, practising my solo takes up soooo much time, n exhaust the player both physically and mentally(esp this), i keep slping at 10.30pm, for 2 whole weeks. to the heck with school work and blocks! haha
The day itself: morning
yupp, so i woke up at 7am and got a call frm mum saying tat i shld pack my stuff 1st. so i did, n in 1/2 hr, got my stuff ready, n continued to tiao qin. took a bloody long 2 hrs n a stiff neck to finish. regardless, it was necessary. Called brother to wake up at 9am, then got ready to go hair styling. Yupp, after it was done, i'd met banana at bradell mrt (thanks for waiting!) n proceeded to my house to get the tons of stuff (instrus n costumes), ordered a london taxi which came in 5 mins, n off we went to nygh. Thanks again for helping me, julian
The day itself:afternoon-till SCH
sec 2s bought us lemon chinken n bubble tea frm coro, which by the time we were eating, other sections were all dressed n waiting. n we hadn't finish loading stuff on the lorry yet. THANKS SENIORS<3>The day itself:afternoon-rehearsals
rehearsals were quite badly done, things go missing, it was rather lousy, which made all of us super freaked out. Especially when my marimba mallets went missing n i didn't hav double mallets on. N because of all delays, we did not manage to rehearse thru shan jian n taiyang at all. But mrs ee had faith in us. My solo went pretty well, no obvious mistakes, n i'd gotten an uncanny lot of comments on my dress, which i refuse to believe they're saying the truth. Thanks mrs ee for the wonderful comments. i couldn't hope for better. but basically, i had the same sentiments too, esp since last year.
-When i played yq, i thought i'd had matured more, n the music sound more mature. n u confirmed that.
-i'm nt sure abt the improving part, cos i didn't think i'd improve alot. its the last minute chiong-ing that's making sense. but then again, its confirmed by daddy cos he said (the day b4) that only now, i'd start having some essence of the yq skill that joshua has (cos joshua's the magnificently pro one that dad keep praising).
-i do agree i'd became more "open" in my taifeng. its the years of experience, but not enough. but compared to sec 1, of course there's a slight diff. experiencing some difficulties n everything changed me totally last year (shall i call it a blessing in disguise?)
-i couldn't agree more with wad u said abt my solo that will definitely be better during the actual performance in the evening later on.. i mean, after the concert. i felt it too. kind of... i enjoyed performing for the audience(new founded feeling). i ain't that scared of the audience anymore, though i was nvr rlly very scared of performing solo before. mayb cos i was finally able to get my focus on the music mroe than the notes? anyway, it's a good start.
The day itself:evening-dinner
dinner, guess what, usual chicken rice, beni n shawn brought drinks thou. ARIGATO! n ET was with us, but decided to sit on the bench alone, cos we were taking too long to decide where to sit. Yupp, so dinner ,the only time we could talk. All of us shot qns after qns after qns , which were all solved. Then, as yqp, we ran up to backstage immediately when the door is opened, n got ready everything.
The night itself: 丝竹琴韵 '08
And so it started, with us standing by at the side, getting all hyped up and everything. N after emcees started, we went in, n it was BALI 1st. surprisingly, my consistent failure to play those little 1 bar solo bits were rlly successful n louder! bali went well.
--then SHA DI ER. It was quite well too, but i kinda screwed up the shou gu. its skin was too tight, n thus the pitch too high. regardless, it went well without obvious mistakes.
-I recall the whole yqp being tgt by the side, waiting for our turn, when it rlly was our turn. STORM. the set up took a while cos the wheels of the mallets instru are locked, n are awfully hard to unlock them. still, it turned out all very fine. The whole pice was quite ok, from audience point of view. But as what julian said, passable, not awesome, but passable. that's the most we could do in such short time. GD JOB
- and it was DIYI. It went rather well, n limqing look cool in that gown.my sis said she loved it very much. yup, the vibe proble mwas finally sorted out, thanks to the gd acoustics in SCH.
during interval, i immediately pulled yuka to my VIP rm n got changed into my solo dress. Thanks yuka once again. N then i was done during BAIYI GUNIANG the guzheng piece, so i didn't rlly pay any attention to it. heard it was quite ok thou.
-and it was my itme *shudders* TIAN SHAN SHI HUA. not that i was scared. but as i'd have mentioned, my section gave me the last boost for me to play the music as i wanted it. Giving hugs and encouragements... i was so touched, i almost wanted to cry, n got nervous. BUT i told myself that by doing that, i'd just ruined the whole thing. so I walked out , n started playing. Heard gd comments frm ppl too. Thank you ppl, for sms-ing me words of congrats aftr that!
(added on 30/8/08- heard the recording. AND RECORDINGS ARE MERCILESS. It was not as good as i expected, and what i heard on stage that day. but overall it was pretty well. And as usual, i portrayed the musical sense of the piece beautifully [said by a respected person for music]- but i ain't satisfied. JIAYOU!)
-then, off to change while cass goes on as piano accompaniment for YANG GUANG. it was crap during rehearsals, but it turned out just fine, which was good. gd job cass!
- we were still running abt, getting luos n chuis ready n all that, making sure all drums had powder on etc etc when alumni finished their item. n the the emcees announced our item, QIN WANG DIAN BIN, n we moved out, afap. n it started. everyone was amazed by our drumming, and especially the effects of the introduction, what with the powder effect. I'm quite sure qin wang was one of the best item. We did our best yqp! We placed the whole of ourselves into the music. It was marvelous.
- n then, there was chaos on stage when we all started arranging instrus for SHAN JIAN. it was quite well done. esther was fantastic too! haha, i rmb just b4 qin wang, we were signing autographs for xyz juniors!
-AND FINALLY, our grand finale item, TAI YANG. I think everyone enjoyed this the most, creating the atmosphere n getting the adrenaline. It was not proffesional, but yes, awesome. The effect on the audience was perfect.
The night itself: moving instruments back to m4-01
it was super chaotic after everything, n ppl just left, leaving yqp sheng n ssabollec to fend for ourselves against the merciless rain. We reached school at around 12 (cos this time, 1 lorry was almost not enough as perc has like 2 sets of tim, 1 big marimba n a big datanggu). So we started to unload and move things up- we had to tilt the yun luo vertically and disemble the marimba which took too much time- and by that time, it was qutie near 1am. Gd job us. thanks miss chooi, for staying and bearing with the tiredness that was showing clearly on her face. After settling the important shit, we left, by the naggy but necessary reminders by miss chooi.
It was rlly worth everything. I LOVE YOU, NYCO
The night before
yupp, slept accurately at 10.30pm... cos i reached home at 8 plus and i had to tiao qin the last time before the BIG day. after tiao-ing the bottom half, i got so damn tired, i decided to slp, n tiao the nxt day... wonder how ppl just couldn't slp! hahaha. and then again, practising my solo takes up soooo much time, n exhaust the player both physically and mentally(esp this), i keep slping at 10.30pm, for 2 whole weeks. to the heck with school work and blocks! haha
The day itself: morning
yupp, so i woke up at 7am and got a call frm mum saying tat i shld pack my stuff 1st. so i did, n in 1/2 hr, got my stuff ready, n continued to tiao qin. took a bloody long 2 hrs n a stiff neck to finish. regardless, it was necessary. Called brother to wake up at 9am, then got ready to go hair styling. Yupp, after it was done, i'd met banana at bradell mrt (thanks for waiting!) n proceeded to my house to get the tons of stuff (instrus n costumes), ordered a london taxi which came in 5 mins, n off we went to nygh. Thanks again for helping me, julian
The day itself:afternoon-till SCH
sec 2s bought us lemon chinken n bubble tea frm coro, which by the time we were eating, other sections were all dressed n waiting. n we hadn't finish loading stuff on the lorry yet. THANKS SENIORS<3>The day itself:afternoon-rehearsals
rehearsals were quite badly done, things go missing, it was rather lousy, which made all of us super freaked out. Especially when my marimba mallets went missing n i didn't hav double mallets on. N because of all delays, we did not manage to rehearse thru shan jian n taiyang at all. But mrs ee had faith in us. My solo went pretty well, no obvious mistakes, n i'd gotten an uncanny lot of comments on my dress, which i refuse to believe they're saying the truth. Thanks mrs ee for the wonderful comments. i couldn't hope for better. but basically, i had the same sentiments too, esp since last year.
-When i played yq, i thought i'd had matured more, n the music sound more mature. n u confirmed that.
-i'm nt sure abt the improving part, cos i didn't think i'd improve alot. its the last minute chiong-ing that's making sense. but then again, its confirmed by daddy cos he said (the day b4) that only now, i'd start having some essence of the yq skill that joshua has (cos joshua's the magnificently pro one that dad keep praising).
-i do agree i'd became more "open" in my taifeng. its the years of experience, but not enough. but compared to sec 1, of course there's a slight diff. experiencing some difficulties n everything changed me totally last year (shall i call it a blessing in disguise?)
-i couldn't agree more with wad u said abt my solo that will definitely be better during the actual performance in the evening later on.. i mean, after the concert. i felt it too. kind of... i enjoyed performing for the audience(new founded feeling). i ain't that scared of the audience anymore, though i was nvr rlly very scared of performing solo before. mayb cos i was finally able to get my focus on the music mroe than the notes? anyway, it's a good start.
The day itself:evening-dinner
dinner, guess what, usual chicken rice, beni n shawn brought drinks thou. ARIGATO! n ET was with us, but decided to sit on the bench alone, cos we were taking too long to decide where to sit. Yupp, so dinner ,the only time we could talk. All of us shot qns after qns after qns , which were all solved. Then, as yqp, we ran up to backstage immediately when the door is opened, n got ready everything.
The night itself: 丝竹琴韵 '08
And so it started, with us standing by at the side, getting all hyped up and everything. N after emcees started, we went in, n it was BALI 1st. surprisingly, my consistent failure to play those little 1 bar solo bits were rlly successful n louder! bali went well.
--then SHA DI ER. It was quite well too, but i kinda screwed up the shou gu. its skin was too tight, n thus the pitch too high. regardless, it went well without obvious mistakes.
-I recall the whole yqp being tgt by the side, waiting for our turn, when it rlly was our turn. STORM. the set up took a while cos the wheels of the mallets instru are locked, n are awfully hard to unlock them. still, it turned out all very fine. The whole pice was quite ok, from audience point of view. But as what julian said, passable, not awesome, but passable. that's the most we could do in such short time. GD JOB
- and it was DIYI. It went rather well, n limqing look cool in that gown.my sis said she loved it very much. yup, the vibe proble mwas finally sorted out, thanks to the gd acoustics in SCH.
during interval, i immediately pulled yuka to my VIP rm n got changed into my solo dress. Thanks yuka once again. N then i was done during BAIYI GUNIANG the guzheng piece, so i didn't rlly pay any attention to it. heard it was quite ok thou.
-and it was my itme *shudders* TIAN SHAN SHI HUA. not that i was scared. but as i'd have mentioned, my section gave me the last boost for me to play the music as i wanted it. Giving hugs and encouragements... i was so touched, i almost wanted to cry, n got nervous. BUT i told myself that by doing that, i'd just ruined the whole thing. so I walked out , n started playing. Heard gd comments frm ppl too. Thank you ppl, for sms-ing me words of congrats aftr that!
(added on 30/8/08- heard the recording. AND RECORDINGS ARE MERCILESS. It was not as good as i expected, and what i heard on stage that day. but overall it was pretty well. And as usual, i portrayed the musical sense of the piece beautifully [said by a respected person for music]- but i ain't satisfied. JIAYOU!)
-then, off to change while cass goes on as piano accompaniment for YANG GUANG. it was crap during rehearsals, but it turned out just fine, which was good. gd job cass!
- we were still running abt, getting luos n chuis ready n all that, making sure all drums had powder on etc etc when alumni finished their item. n the the emcees announced our item, QIN WANG DIAN BIN, n we moved out, afap. n it started. everyone was amazed by our drumming, and especially the effects of the introduction, what with the powder effect. I'm quite sure qin wang was one of the best item. We did our best yqp! We placed the whole of ourselves into the music. It was marvelous.
- n then, there was chaos on stage when we all started arranging instrus for SHAN JIAN. it was quite well done. esther was fantastic too! haha, i rmb just b4 qin wang, we were signing autographs for xyz juniors!
-AND FINALLY, our grand finale item, TAI YANG. I think everyone enjoyed this the most, creating the atmosphere n getting the adrenaline. It was not proffesional, but yes, awesome. The effect on the audience was perfect.
The night itself: moving instruments back to m4-01
it was super chaotic after everything, n ppl just left, leaving yqp sheng n ssabollec to fend for ourselves against the merciless rain. We reached school at around 12 (cos this time, 1 lorry was almost not enough as perc has like 2 sets of tim, 1 big marimba n a big datanggu). So we started to unload and move things up- we had to tilt the yun luo vertically and disemble the marimba which took too much time- and by that time, it was qutie near 1am. Gd job us. thanks miss chooi, for staying and bearing with the tiredness that was showing clearly on her face. After settling the important shit, we left, by the naggy but necessary reminders by miss chooi.
It was rlly worth everything. I LOVE YOU, NYCO
丝竹琴韵 2
wow looks at the time. 3.30am.
n to the hell with blocks. just done searching all the nyco related stuff on goggle (typical :P) yea, quite please with the comments n such. NYCO <3. somehow, this concert is the best i'd ever had.
maybe its the super hard work over the past months and all that frantic anxiety over everything to be in perfect order, that's why the success felt so satisfying. Too satisfying indeed.
only know do i really understand post concert depressions. Yea, i do miss the other concerts (some only) and syfs etc etc, but this particular concert gave me the deepest impression. So mych that i still want it to continue on forever, to have another round... come to think of it, its the last NYCO concert i'll have. Pass all the ups and downs, happy and frightening moments... i've never felt so bonded to a chinese orchestra in my life before. you are the 1st and the only one that can do it, nyco.
who's going to remember what they ate for dinner on concert day? who's going to remember what notes they played wrongly?
of course, its the standing ovation we received from the audiences, the hectic backstage experiences, the end concert clear up (like ahem, moving instruments back to m401 till 1pm etc), the near shit my qin xuan snapped into half moments and most importantly, the music we as nyco felt as a whole, and in turn offereing it to our audience.
come to think of it now, i don't even havethe mood to study... feels kind of like... i'd have lost everything, no direction, just walking because there's a road. I know, i'd been warned by me angel before, n expecting it to come, but, i didn;t know the impact would be this great, like staying up till 4am n such.
it'll pass, it'll [ass. thats what everyone keep saying. and it definitely will pass... but how long before that?
n to the hell with blocks. just done searching all the nyco related stuff on goggle (typical :P) yea, quite please with the comments n such. NYCO <3. somehow, this concert is the best i'd ever had.
maybe its the super hard work over the past months and all that frantic anxiety over everything to be in perfect order, that's why the success felt so satisfying. Too satisfying indeed.
only know do i really understand post concert depressions. Yea, i do miss the other concerts (some only) and syfs etc etc, but this particular concert gave me the deepest impression. So mych that i still want it to continue on forever, to have another round... come to think of it, its the last NYCO concert i'll have. Pass all the ups and downs, happy and frightening moments... i've never felt so bonded to a chinese orchestra in my life before. you are the 1st and the only one that can do it, nyco.
who's going to remember what they ate for dinner on concert day? who's going to remember what notes they played wrongly?
of course, its the standing ovation we received from the audiences, the hectic backstage experiences, the end concert clear up (like ahem, moving instruments back to m401 till 1pm etc), the near shit my qin xuan snapped into half moments and most importantly, the music we as nyco felt as a whole, and in turn offereing it to our audience.
come to think of it now, i don't even havethe mood to study... feels kind of like... i'd have lost everything, no direction, just walking because there's a road. I know, i'd been warned by me angel before, n expecting it to come, but, i didn;t know the impact would be this great, like staying up till 4am n such.
it'll pass, it'll [ass. thats what everyone keep saying. and it definitely will pass... but how long before that?
丝竹琴韵
and it ended with taiyang.
yepp, putting aside all the fantastic comments i saw on google about this year's NYCO concert, i believed it was a great success, even bigger than 2 years ago.
I seem to remember, 2 years ago when i just joined nyco, feeling lost and scared (cos i was the only sec 1 with hazel), yet safe and assured cos everything was settled nicely, knowing that we were all ready for the concert a few months before. And regardless of what, it went very smoothly.
Come this year, 2 years since, things began looking hectic. Programme too long, costumes not settled, orchestral pieces not ready (to the extend of only starting a new piece less than a month before concert), tickets and poster designs, the lack of enthusiasm in juniors etc etc etc. and it goes on and on and on...
yet we all enjoyed it. Its the process that is what we will enjoy looking back few years down the road... the great times we spent practising, bonding, laughing and frustrated. Yea, this will be a special something stored in my memories forever~
There are a few people I want to thank or rather, acknowledge that in some way or another helped make this concert a great success:
Mrs Ee: for believing in the impossible (like *coughs* doing 2 concertos n playing all the hard pieces that COs seldom dare to), driving us to the limit and beyond, making sure we do our best and not hun, making us believe that we can make it in time. Most importantly, thanks for being strict and serious during dazus. Without that, we would not have improved so much as a whole CO. For personal, thanks for giving me this wonderful opportunity, which serves as a stepping stone for my musical journey. Thanks for allowing me to showcase my lousy talent, and giving me the drive to improve on my yangqin.
Chew Fei: for daring to take risks and driving us to our limits as well, doing both chinese n western perc, conducting section talks which allows us to help each other reflect and comment on room for improvements for each other.
NYCO: for making things possible and enjoyable for everyone. Without each and everyone of u, there would not have been an NYCO.
YQP: for giving me such enjoyable moments, for giving me the drive to improve on my skills, for allowing me to have different experiences and emotions, for believing that we can make it and bond as a whole section, for standing together, for our courage. Thanks for the fun times we shared. Thanks for your never-ending support, esp during my solo :P hahaha, i'd like to see u guys dance! Thanks so much for the encouraging words u guys said just before i went on stage. Without these words, i would have felt rlly empty and alone, and the emotions would not have been portrayed out in my solo as the way i wanted it to so nicely. Thanks for helping me out, esp the mallets thing and scores n qinzhus n every little logistics that was needed to be done, yet i forget or was to freaked out to remember. Love you guys~ <3
nygh runners n AVA club: Thanks for being there, despite block tests being 3 days away. If not for your vigourous training to move things in lightning speed, there would be shortage of seats and too much comsumed time, and audiences would not have liked it. Thanks for the support you gave us, for without u guys, we would not have played well too.
Audiences: thanks for taking your precious time away to attend this concert. Without u guys, the concert would have been stage for naught. U made a lot of different. Thanks for coming to appreciate the music we had offered, hope u had an enjoyable evening.
GECO: thanks for lending me the shou gu, or i'd have completely screwed up sha dier. And of cos, for supporting our members, making us feel proud of ourselves. Hope u guys had a wonderful evening too!
My family: for giving me your full support since the day i decided to take the untaken road, the music side (i know sports run in our family) and giving me constructive comments when i practise at home. Thanks for allowing me to fufil my dreams and getting responses that i liked. Thanks for helping me out when i most needed them. Without u guys, there would not have been this memorable day for me.
GECO percussion: Thanks for givign me the drive to hone my percussion skills. Thou there are only a pathetic number of 5 frequent official members, i'd like to say that u guys (yea, all male, weird) made me feel homely about ge. Not to mention that u guys supported me full-heartedly too, esp for this concert. It feels wonderful, being with u guys ,feeling so bonded and all. In fact, it must be our size that made it so fast n easy to bond together (but u still come in 2nd aftr yqp <3) thanks for fully accepting me. I was afraid u guys wont, esp when i m the only girl. love you guys too! <3
Oh and of course, the are some people i would like to mention specially:
Yuka: for helping me get changed into my costume so many times as quick as possible. I couldn't imagine how i would have fared if u weren't there.
wei lao shi: (thou u cant read english) for your guidance and advices on my solo item, helping me improve and such.
julian: thanks for specially going down to bradell(gosh is this how u spell it?!) all the way frm the east :( and waiting for almost 1 hour (thou u deserve it ok!) for me and then to my house to help me with the tons of instruments i had to bring to school. Thanks for going all the way to nygh with me. Thanks for helping me out with the shou gu (that particualr ge session :P) and the lending of gu chuis. I promise i'll find it back for u! or buy a new one :P haha. Thanks for all the encouraging words u showered me with from long before the concert till now, even after the concert.Thanks for believing in us, yqp, and giving us support in anyway you can, from helping us with longteng (such long times) and giving us encouragements by the things u did for us. We really appriciate it very very much. Thou not obvious, but u did affect us in some way. Thakns for being the best brother i'd ever had.
Lim qing: for lending me your jacket- i completely forgot to bring mine! shit! haha
To everyone else and those that i forget to mention and thsoe that i mentioned , THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
yepp, putting aside all the fantastic comments i saw on google about this year's NYCO concert, i believed it was a great success, even bigger than 2 years ago.
I seem to remember, 2 years ago when i just joined nyco, feeling lost and scared (cos i was the only sec 1 with hazel), yet safe and assured cos everything was settled nicely, knowing that we were all ready for the concert a few months before. And regardless of what, it went very smoothly.
Come this year, 2 years since, things began looking hectic. Programme too long, costumes not settled, orchestral pieces not ready (to the extend of only starting a new piece less than a month before concert), tickets and poster designs, the lack of enthusiasm in juniors etc etc etc. and it goes on and on and on...
yet we all enjoyed it. Its the process that is what we will enjoy looking back few years down the road... the great times we spent practising, bonding, laughing and frustrated. Yea, this will be a special something stored in my memories forever~
There are a few people I want to thank or rather, acknowledge that in some way or another helped make this concert a great success:
Mrs Ee: for believing in the impossible (like *coughs* doing 2 concertos n playing all the hard pieces that COs seldom dare to), driving us to the limit and beyond, making sure we do our best and not hun, making us believe that we can make it in time. Most importantly, thanks for being strict and serious during dazus. Without that, we would not have improved so much as a whole CO. For personal, thanks for giving me this wonderful opportunity, which serves as a stepping stone for my musical journey. Thanks for allowing me to showcase my lousy talent, and giving me the drive to improve on my yangqin.
Chew Fei: for daring to take risks and driving us to our limits as well, doing both chinese n western perc, conducting section talks which allows us to help each other reflect and comment on room for improvements for each other.
NYCO: for making things possible and enjoyable for everyone. Without each and everyone of u, there would not have been an NYCO.
YQP: for giving me such enjoyable moments, for giving me the drive to improve on my skills, for allowing me to have different experiences and emotions, for believing that we can make it and bond as a whole section, for standing together, for our courage. Thanks for the fun times we shared. Thanks for your never-ending support, esp during my solo :P hahaha, i'd like to see u guys dance! Thanks so much for the encouraging words u guys said just before i went on stage. Without these words, i would have felt rlly empty and alone, and the emotions would not have been portrayed out in my solo as the way i wanted it to so nicely. Thanks for helping me out, esp the mallets thing and scores n qinzhus n every little logistics that was needed to be done, yet i forget or was to freaked out to remember. Love you guys~ <3
nygh runners n AVA club: Thanks for being there, despite block tests being 3 days away. If not for your vigourous training to move things in lightning speed, there would be shortage of seats and too much comsumed time, and audiences would not have liked it. Thanks for the support you gave us, for without u guys, we would not have played well too.
Audiences: thanks for taking your precious time away to attend this concert. Without u guys, the concert would have been stage for naught. U made a lot of different. Thanks for coming to appreciate the music we had offered, hope u had an enjoyable evening.
GECO: thanks for lending me the shou gu, or i'd have completely screwed up sha dier. And of cos, for supporting our members, making us feel proud of ourselves. Hope u guys had a wonderful evening too!
My family: for giving me your full support since the day i decided to take the untaken road, the music side (i know sports run in our family) and giving me constructive comments when i practise at home. Thanks for allowing me to fufil my dreams and getting responses that i liked. Thanks for helping me out when i most needed them. Without u guys, there would not have been this memorable day for me.
GECO percussion: Thanks for givign me the drive to hone my percussion skills. Thou there are only a pathetic number of 5 frequent official members, i'd like to say that u guys (yea, all male, weird) made me feel homely about ge. Not to mention that u guys supported me full-heartedly too, esp for this concert. It feels wonderful, being with u guys ,feeling so bonded and all. In fact, it must be our size that made it so fast n easy to bond together (but u still come in 2nd aftr yqp <3) thanks for fully accepting me. I was afraid u guys wont, esp when i m the only girl. love you guys too! <3
Oh and of course, the are some people i would like to mention specially:
Yuka: for helping me get changed into my costume so many times as quick as possible. I couldn't imagine how i would have fared if u weren't there.
wei lao shi: (thou u cant read english) for your guidance and advices on my solo item, helping me improve and such.
julian: thanks for specially going down to bradell(gosh is this how u spell it?!) all the way frm the east :( and waiting for almost 1 hour (thou u deserve it ok!) for me and then to my house to help me with the tons of instruments i had to bring to school. Thanks for going all the way to nygh with me. Thanks for helping me out with the shou gu (that particualr ge session :P) and the lending of gu chuis. I promise i'll find it back for u! or buy a new one :P haha. Thanks for all the encouraging words u showered me with from long before the concert till now, even after the concert.Thanks for believing in us, yqp, and giving us support in anyway you can, from helping us with longteng (such long times) and giving us encouragements by the things u did for us. We really appriciate it very very much. Thou not obvious, but u did affect us in some way. Thakns for being the best brother i'd ever had.
Lim qing: for lending me your jacket- i completely forgot to bring mine! shit! haha
To everyone else and those that i forget to mention and thsoe that i mentioned , THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
We must wait until the other appears.
what a day...
sucked into my own world of believing and madness...
yupp, that's me, being so enthu about everything, helping ppl so muc hwhen i don't need to,
caring too much about others...
and what about me?
did u rlly think u care about others too much more than yourself? then what about me? WHAT about me?
i care too much about others to even care if i pass or fail, tired or not... i think i care too much about hurting other people's feelings.
What in the world is wrong? i shold stop being so concern about people around me...
i took a step, and that sensation gushed into my whole body,
falling into an abyss,
deeper and deeper and deeper...
and suddenly the seemingly never ending abyss turned into sea of sponges,
and you were there with your arms wide open, catching me where i fall...
...you are the end of that abyss, and i've fallen nicely into it, not struggling to get out at all...
it's all too comfortable.
just read thru some ppl's blog posts from their day 1... it's just 3 years, and yet we've grown so much... what was a simple and close friendship turned so complicated, yet everything turns out fine after all... which comes to the point that all things go in circles. It's yet another cycle... waiting to turn jsut one more round, but our hands, held together, is stopping it.
what's wrong with me?! semi-emo-ing again... perhaps its the today thing that's causing it?
and yet, i m waiting again.
sucked into my own world of believing and madness...
yupp, that's me, being so enthu about everything, helping ppl so muc hwhen i don't need to,
caring too much about others...
and what about me?
did u rlly think u care about others too much more than yourself? then what about me? WHAT about me?
i care too much about others to even care if i pass or fail, tired or not... i think i care too much about hurting other people's feelings.
What in the world is wrong? i shold stop being so concern about people around me...
i took a step, and that sensation gushed into my whole body,
falling into an abyss,
deeper and deeper and deeper...
and suddenly the seemingly never ending abyss turned into sea of sponges,
and you were there with your arms wide open, catching me where i fall...
...you are the end of that abyss, and i've fallen nicely into it, not struggling to get out at all...
it's all too comfortable.
just read thru some ppl's blog posts from their day 1... it's just 3 years, and yet we've grown so much... what was a simple and close friendship turned so complicated, yet everything turns out fine after all... which comes to the point that all things go in circles. It's yet another cycle... waiting to turn jsut one more round, but our hands, held together, is stopping it.
what's wrong with me?! semi-emo-ing again... perhaps its the today thing that's causing it?
and yet, i m waiting again.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Dedications
to my dearest brother :)
I am really quite fond of you now, coming to finally understand the feeling in my heart for the past few weeks (which i'd have told you sometime ago). For the past few weeks, there was always this strange unfamiliar sense residing in my heart, making me very confused, and thus the semi-emo-ing days.
So i went through each person that i know, at the same time relating that name to the feeling. Most of them did not have any reaction, but yea, it was yours alright. I wasn't sure what on earth that feeling was, bugging me, making me feel happy yet sad at the same time. The strongest time i felt that was on the 1st day of camp though... and i couldn't control it... so i went to the toilet and let it all out. Thankfully no one was there :P
(this is gg to sound wrong...) you were always so cheerful, brightening things up and everything, truthful about your weakness and yet not disregarding it. You are quite humble and motivational indeed. Encouraging would be a nicer word :)
It was only until that Saturday aftrnn outing that i finally understand what i have always not get. Things that i did and thought of for and about you were somewhat the same as how i'd treated my sister... in a little different way. That was when i realised that all the while, i do care for your well-being (which is a should as part of the percussion section welfare :D) like how i care for my sister too. What are siblings for anyway!
Thank you dearest brother once again, for giving me such joy and experience which i could relate to in the future.
Thank you, everyone and thing which made this possible to happen.
I don't have the gist of writing and depicting my feelings and mood clearly on words. I ain't one who's good with words. So, in any case, this is the primary feeling. The others are hard to express in words. Or its just that i can't seem to find the right words. (my vocab is extremely limited)
i m contemplating whether to post this or not...
I am really quite fond of you now, coming to finally understand the feeling in my heart for the past few weeks (which i'd have told you sometime ago). For the past few weeks, there was always this strange unfamiliar sense residing in my heart, making me very confused, and thus the semi-emo-ing days.
So i went through each person that i know, at the same time relating that name to the feeling. Most of them did not have any reaction, but yea, it was yours alright. I wasn't sure what on earth that feeling was, bugging me, making me feel happy yet sad at the same time. The strongest time i felt that was on the 1st day of camp though... and i couldn't control it... so i went to the toilet and let it all out. Thankfully no one was there :P
(this is gg to sound wrong...) you were always so cheerful, brightening things up and everything, truthful about your weakness and yet not disregarding it. You are quite humble and motivational indeed. Encouraging would be a nicer word :)
It was only until that Saturday aftrnn outing that i finally understand what i have always not get. Things that i did and thought of for and about you were somewhat the same as how i'd treated my sister... in a little different way. That was when i realised that all the while, i do care for your well-being (which is a should as part of the percussion section welfare :D) like how i care for my sister too. What are siblings for anyway!
Thank you dearest brother once again, for giving me such joy and experience which i could relate to in the future.
Thank you, everyone and thing which made this possible to happen.
I don't have the gist of writing and depicting my feelings and mood clearly on words. I ain't one who's good with words. So, in any case, this is the primary feeling. The others are hard to express in words. Or its just that i can't seem to find the right words. (my vocab is extremely limited)
i m contemplating whether to post this or not...
Sunday, June 29, 2008
luurrrb euuuu
(:
sister bonding times are strangely fun and totally cool.
had some family bonding time too, ytd b4 gg out. took out the shou gu to prac abit, n started bragging abt how hard it is etc etc (haha ;P) n mum ask me to teach my granddad grandmum. yea, while doing that ,my mind was processing it in another angle ,like those movies thinggem, reflecting on past happy memories, n tat emo music thing... haha
jus felt that it was quite cool, i totally enjoyed tat as well
i know ppl'll think i m weird/ super lucky, but i do hav family probs too. everyone has them. its just the degree of dysfunctionalisation... if there's such word.
as much as i hate my family, i love them too. after all, who can i go to in times of need?
sister bonding times are strangely fun and totally cool.
had some family bonding time too, ytd b4 gg out. took out the shou gu to prac abit, n started bragging abt how hard it is etc etc (haha ;P) n mum ask me to teach my granddad grandmum. yea, while doing that ,my mind was processing it in another angle ,like those movies thinggem, reflecting on past happy memories, n tat emo music thing... haha
jus felt that it was quite cool, i totally enjoyed tat as well
i know ppl'll think i m weird/ super lucky, but i do hav family probs too. everyone has them. its just the degree of dysfunctionalisation... if there's such word.
as much as i hate my family, i love them too. after all, who can i go to in times of need?
Friday, June 27, 2008
Me?
whoops, this is bad. B-A-D.
i m actually itching to blog again, after successfully restric myself frm blogging anymore.
Must be someone's infouence.
wonder who...
anyway, watching 我太太是流氓2, at the same time Whose line is it anyway?... its like a while fighting, a while funny.. so weird! hahaha.
shall get on with watching my shows now (:
i m actually itching to blog again, after successfully restric myself frm blogging anymore.
Must be someone's infouence.
wonder who...
anyway, watching 我太太是流氓2, at the same time Whose line is it anyway?... its like a while fighting, a while funny.. so weird! hahaha.
shall get on with watching my shows now (:
Thursday, June 26, 2008
Touched
Just came back from a concert by my sis's school... for their 75th anniversary.
The children looked so cute! When the youngests of those came out with table tennis bats, my tears couldn't hold it any longer.
I had no idea what drove me to that, but, i seem to feel so much emotions for them, dancing... dancing... dancing... Oh how innocent they looked, as i stared at them for a seemingly long time..............................................before the stage cleared.
Ah, what i'd do to get the chance to go back to my primary school days when i don't worry about so much things (and there's gg to be more each year as i grow).
Carefree.
No chance to regret it now.
Morbid? at this age, i shld be yearning for adulthood or sth, like what everyone does... Nope, my heart stays with the bouncy scuttlers that are filling up the stage in UCC, filling up the stage in my heart, giving a show to just me. Alone.
And I cried again. Just felt touched by the children... flinging their arms senselessly as their teacher wants to, yet enjoying all the time, smiling and smiling, true from the heart.
A forced smile...
The children looked so cute! When the youngests of those came out with table tennis bats, my tears couldn't hold it any longer.
I had no idea what drove me to that, but, i seem to feel so much emotions for them, dancing... dancing... dancing... Oh how innocent they looked, as i stared at them for a seemingly long time..............................................before the stage cleared.
Ah, what i'd do to get the chance to go back to my primary school days when i don't worry about so much things (and there's gg to be more each year as i grow).
Carefree.
No chance to regret it now.
Morbid? at this age, i shld be yearning for adulthood or sth, like what everyone does... Nope, my heart stays with the bouncy scuttlers that are filling up the stage in UCC, filling up the stage in my heart, giving a show to just me. Alone.
And I cried again. Just felt touched by the children... flinging their arms senselessly as their teacher wants to, yet enjoying all the time, smiling and smiling, true from the heart.
A forced smile...
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
You said that last night.
Oh man, i m seriously not doing this again?! at almost 1 am in the morning, and blogging when i m supposed to be slping.
shucks... tchr wants to listen to my solo tmr.. *DIES*
hm, i wonder why nowadays when i am alone, i tend to think of things i constantly remind myself not to. Then i'll start emo-ing in my heart, but show nothing at all on the outside. WEIRD. wendy, get a grip on yourself.
hey dude! (yes, directed at someone, despite the last post -.-) i'm still on abt being a child psychologist aft.. 7mths ok... n u were saying the thought'll die out soon. Though now its not psychologist i want. its PSYCHIARTRIST.
yepp, psychologist who prescribes medicine.
i feel this way everytime i think of you... why?
it's so different from the rest, despite myself saying over and over again that it is impossible...
get out of my life! to save the both of us...
before its too late for me...
shucks... tchr wants to listen to my solo tmr.. *DIES*
hm, i wonder why nowadays when i am alone, i tend to think of things i constantly remind myself not to. Then i'll start emo-ing in my heart, but show nothing at all on the outside. WEIRD. wendy, get a grip on yourself.
hey dude! (yes, directed at someone, despite the last post -.-) i'm still on abt being a child psychologist aft.. 7mths ok... n u were saying the thought'll die out soon. Though now its not psychologist i want. its PSYCHIARTRIST.
yepp, psychologist who prescribes medicine.
i feel this way everytime i think of you... why?
it's so different from the rest, despite myself saying over and over again that it is impossible...
get out of my life! to save the both of us...
before its too late for me...
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Do you care for me?
Whew
a long time had elapsed since i last posted. perhaps thats all for the best. I don't know what to blog about anyway... not to mention that i do have a wordpress n a few more blog links...
yea, its smack in the middle of the night, and i m chiong-ing trigo, at the same time reading ppl's blogs. n sms-ing. SUPER UNHEALTHY. what can I do anyway... welcome to my life.
had NYCO prac today, was lin lao's dazu... SHA DI ER n MENG ZHI BALI~ both are super nice, but i happen to be on the weird side of it.
plays weird instruments for both pieces, and apparently, my juniors (frm other section) thinks they're damn COOL- sure.
They won't say that if they're the ones playing a shou gu till their hands get damn red n pain or slapping paigus with conga sticks cos congas are non-existence in CO. sure.
i know, must be wondering why the psot title...
Do you care for me?
Not directing at anyone. Seriously. I have the impression that if a sentence is directed to someone, everyone who reads it will think it's them. It must be true. Or it's just me. So don't think I am directing it to anyone.
*wow... my mum just spelt chaos with a K* grins... silly old mum <3
ok, so the hustle and bustle of holidays are over. GOOD
UK trip was cool. what could I say about it. Seriously, if u r planning to see me blog abt UK trip, then u can sit in front of the comp for a few thousand more years. it'll appear soon enough.
MOE CO CAMP was quite fun. *still have the songs stuck in my head!!!* Loved the last day the most.
i have so given up on maths now. NO MORE TRIGO.
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...
...
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just thinking of some things...
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...
...
...
have you ever had a sense of elation yet sorrow at the same time?
that you are happy to see a person happy, even if it makes you sad?
and you always want to keep that person in sight for as long as you can?
to hold the moment of being together longer so that you can enjoy it more?
that is love, my dear, love.
a long time had elapsed since i last posted. perhaps thats all for the best. I don't know what to blog about anyway... not to mention that i do have a wordpress n a few more blog links...
yea, its smack in the middle of the night, and i m chiong-ing trigo, at the same time reading ppl's blogs. n sms-ing. SUPER UNHEALTHY. what can I do anyway... welcome to my life.
had NYCO prac today, was lin lao's dazu... SHA DI ER n MENG ZHI BALI~ both are super nice, but i happen to be on the weird side of it.
plays weird instruments for both pieces, and apparently, my juniors (frm other section) thinks they're damn COOL- sure.
They won't say that if they're the ones playing a shou gu till their hands get damn red n pain or slapping paigus with conga sticks cos congas are non-existence in CO. sure.
i know, must be wondering why the psot title...
Do you care for me?
Not directing at anyone. Seriously. I have the impression that if a sentence is directed to someone, everyone who reads it will think it's them. It must be true. Or it's just me. So don't think I am directing it to anyone.
*wow... my mum just spelt chaos with a K* grins... silly old mum <3
ok, so the hustle and bustle of holidays are over. GOOD
UK trip was cool. what could I say about it. Seriously, if u r planning to see me blog abt UK trip, then u can sit in front of the comp for a few thousand more years. it'll appear soon enough.
MOE CO CAMP was quite fun. *still have the songs stuck in my head!!!* Loved the last day the most.
i have so given up on maths now. NO MORE TRIGO.
...
...
...
...
just thinking of some things...
...
...
...
...
have you ever had a sense of elation yet sorrow at the same time?
that you are happy to see a person happy, even if it makes you sad?
and you always want to keep that person in sight for as long as you can?
to hold the moment of being together longer so that you can enjoy it more?
that is love, my dear, love.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
I am feeling a strong ense o emotinal outburst right now.
No idea why.
Must be sme particular emails i just read.
just want to say that I am who I am.
When thee is something that I disagree to, I won't make a comment or show it.
But when i strongly disagree to something, i will definitely express it out, like a new point of view thing to the whole something. Still, i won't make it look as though i strongly disagree to it. So when i ever do mke these coments, you know i really am against the idea.
Straight face. no smiles.
No idea why.
Must be sme particular emails i just read.
just want to say that I am who I am.
When thee is something that I disagree to, I won't make a comment or show it.
But when i strongly disagree to something, i will definitely express it out, like a new point of view thing to the whole something. Still, i won't make it look as though i strongly disagree to it. So when i ever do mke these coments, you know i really am against the idea.
Straight face. no smiles.
Monday, March 10, 2008
OBS
was not a really good ahem, camp.
like firstly, it was raining (HEAVY DOWNPOUR) all day throughout the whole week. Which means doing everything in the rain, including trekking and kayaking. Now, I won't go through the trouble of writing everything down. You'll know it anyway, or you'll know soon.
yay, today's monday! and i'd have done so many things - bought my nice white heels, white dresses, finished transcribing for my mum- I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED! hahahahahaha
and wheee
don't you see the radiant smile hanging on my face?! my dad's got a tablet PC for me :) joyous occasion (: hp, it's personal. AND not forgetting my new mini mp4 player
wahahaha i feel so happy. And i am still thinking of the UK trip (yesh yesh yesh)
am i...? yes...
don't think i am going to forgive you so easily yet.
These things cannot be done exaggeratedly too much.
Laugh about it once, twice, thrice...
Do you think this can go on forever?
Do you think I can stand this forever?
Do you think you can always stay insensitive forever?
Grow up.
I am still the cheerful bubbly person
like firstly, it was raining (HEAVY DOWNPOUR) all day throughout the whole week. Which means doing everything in the rain, including trekking and kayaking. Now, I won't go through the trouble of writing everything down. You'll know it anyway, or you'll know soon.
yay, today's monday! and i'd have done so many things - bought my nice white heels, white dresses, finished transcribing for my mum- I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED! hahahahahaha
and wheee
don't you see the radiant smile hanging on my face?! my dad's got a tablet PC for me :) joyous occasion (: hp, it's personal. AND not forgetting my new mini mp4 player
wahahaha i feel so happy. And i am still thinking of the UK trip (yesh yesh yesh)
am i...? yes...
don't think i am going to forgive you so easily yet.
These things cannot be done exaggeratedly too much.
Laugh about it once, twice, thrice...
Do you think this can go on forever?
Do you think I can stand this forever?
Do you think you can always stay insensitive forever?
Grow up.
I am still the cheerful bubbly person
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
HALLELUJAH
yay! saw JJLIN at Bugis junction on sunday (:
and i didn't know he was going to be there.
STILL, OMG!!! haha, my 1st idol! yay
anyway, shi wee n i saw a really nice dress, which is suitable for stage, and guess what. $85. wow. like i can afford that. of course i can, but i must SAVE UP for the UK trip!
just came back from taking the blood test. well, not exactly a test, cos the doctor just take some blood from me, (with me trying not to @)%*@) haha... don't like needles.
AND IT'S OBS next week! *cries* i seem to have a lot of things coming up all of a sudden. like last year (or 2 years ago)- should be last year.
-->First coming up is this stinking OBS and i bet i would say i enjoy it after next week.
-->Next is hm, the audition for MOE CO CAMP... which i hope i can get in, or maybe not, cos before that is the UK trip.
--> Then it's the performance (sth to do with all CO instruments societies send a few ppl to perform- a national thinggo)on sunday, 16th march, last day of march hols, which is where the $85 dress comes in.
--> And then that's about it till June, the UK trip, and probably the MOE CO CAMP.yea
--> Lastly, our NYCO concert, which i will probably be playing a solo or sth.
Don't you think tis is such a wonderful and enriching life?! -.- out of all, i only like the UK trip. and possibly the OBS (hard to say). Well, seeing that i have nothing to do now, i better find sth CONSTRUCTIVE to do...
and needls are just horrible.
and i didn't know he was going to be there.
STILL, OMG!!! haha, my 1st idol! yay
anyway, shi wee n i saw a really nice dress, which is suitable for stage, and guess what. $85. wow. like i can afford that. of course i can, but i must SAVE UP for the UK trip!
just came back from taking the blood test. well, not exactly a test, cos the doctor just take some blood from me, (with me trying not to @)%*@) haha... don't like needles.
AND IT'S OBS next week! *cries* i seem to have a lot of things coming up all of a sudden. like last year (or 2 years ago)- should be last year.
-->First coming up is this stinking OBS and i bet i would say i enjoy it after next week.
-->Next is hm, the audition for MOE CO CAMP... which i hope i can get in, or maybe not, cos before that is the UK trip.
--> Then it's the performance (sth to do with all CO instruments societies send a few ppl to perform- a national thinggo)on sunday, 16th march, last day of march hols, which is where the $85 dress comes in.
--> And then that's about it till June, the UK trip, and probably the MOE CO CAMP.yea
--> Lastly, our NYCO concert, which i will probably be playing a solo or sth.
Don't you think tis is such a wonderful and enriching life?! -.- out of all, i only like the UK trip. and possibly the OBS (hard to say). Well, seeing that i have nothing to do now, i better find sth CONSTRUCTIVE to do...
and needls are just horrible.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
HAHAHA
bought a new bag from Charles & Keith today! yay so happy.
And a short-cum-long sleeves shirt as well from taka! it's so cool! as in like the sleeves can be taken out, and buttoned on again! haha
shall upload the pics of these 2 things when i've got the time.
got a new mp4 as well! haha yay! it's touch screen~
AND I AM GOING TO UK!~yay! haha, so many things to be happy abt (:
oh yea, and i put my money into my bank account just now (: and now i have enough for the UK trip (: haha (allowance i mean)
sall be slping soon. Look at the time *yawns*
bought a new bag from Charles & Keith today! yay so happy.
And a short-cum-long sleeves shirt as well from taka! it's so cool! as in like the sleeves can be taken out, and buttoned on again! haha
shall upload the pics of these 2 things when i've got the time.
got a new mp4 as well! haha yay! it's touch screen~
AND I AM GOING TO UK!~yay! haha, so many things to be happy abt (:
oh yea, and i put my money into my bank account just now (: and now i have enough for the UK trip (: haha (allowance i mean)
sall be slping soon. Look at the time *yawns*
Saturday, February 9, 2008
Happy Chinese New Year
àlthough it's a bit too late, but well, it ok.
since ppl hardly read this blog atall. anyway, there's nothing much to say, except going idioticly and irrevocably crazy over a series (twilight etc) by stepehnie meyer.
yea, so best wishes for everyone, and i don't like this keyboard (my sister's). like i can't ypeas fast as on mine ( cos apparently, it can't pick up the 2nd letter if it's pressed a nano second after the 1st was pressed.) and the cpu is so fast.
*fumming*
*takes deep breath*
THANK YOU TABI! haha for lending me twilight. BTW, i'd finished all three, and is waiting impatiently for the nex book to appear. An i'd reread the whole of twilight. Gd book <333
since ppl hardly read this blog atall. anyway, there's nothing much to say, except going idioticly and irrevocably crazy over a series (twilight etc) by stepehnie meyer.
yea, so best wishes for everyone, and i don't like this keyboard (my sister's). like i can't ypeas fast as on mine ( cos apparently, it can't pick up the 2nd letter if it's pressed a nano second after the 1st was pressed.) and the cpu is so fast.
*fumming*
*takes deep breath*
THANK YOU TABI! haha for lending me twilight. BTW, i'd finished all three, and is waiting impatiently for the nex book to appear. An i'd reread the whole of twilight. Gd book <333
Monday, February 4, 2008
I AM SO PISSED.
yes, with the person who picked up my wallet.
* cos i don't know if the person who delivered my wallet back to my house is the same who picked up he wallet or not.
So i was happily walking downthe road at blk 1, near my house, and i crossed the road. The i saw the bus coming, and was about to make a dash for it. And hey presto! my wallet's gone!
Startng to panic, i searched and searched for that black little thing that's been with me fo 2 months only... and it was all in vain. Desparate, i decided to go home 1st.
So, at home, and i told my parents, blah blahb blah, canceled my POSB ATM card, made a police report of the lost ezlink... (found out that the police database has the address of my grandparent's former house [ 10 YEARS AGO] as mine... wow) and then got ready for piano lesson...
And so on the way to lesson, my grandma called and said a person came to return my wallet (thanks to the appointment cardS that has my address all printed on them). And was so damn glad...
N got home, which is now. and took a good look at my wallet. OMFG! it was raped! Apparently, ppl's hands tend to get attracted to money, AND invisible money. somehow, they'll sniff it out.
yes, i admit i've got a $50 note in my wallet. hidden.
and also, they like to ransack the whole wallet. Leaving OBVIOUS signs that my wallet has been raped. All the cards i took weeks to put properly are put in bunches at different compartments... and obviously the $$$'s all gone. _(&*@(^&^)_
And now my downstairs neighbour decides to smoke and harm my health.
Ok, it's not tat i am ungrateful the person didn't just take my wallet away forever ( considering t's like MYUK and NEW). But, come on, show some PRIVACY... and respect ?! Not that i expect the money would still be there, but really, going through the whole wallet and NOT putting the cards back to the original places? or at least somehow put it nicely instead of in bunches eveywhere...
Really one of a kind.
The most important thing is that i 've got my wallet back, and is really happy and grateul, but it really pissed me off as well. As the say goes, " if it happens once, it will never happen a second time, but if it happens a second time, there will be a third"
Don't worry, there won't be a second time!
* cos i don't know if the person who delivered my wallet back to my house is the same who picked up he wallet or not.
So i was happily walking downthe road at blk 1, near my house, and i crossed the road. The i saw the bus coming, and was about to make a dash for it. And hey presto! my wallet's gone!
Startng to panic, i searched and searched for that black little thing that's been with me fo 2 months only... and it was all in vain. Desparate, i decided to go home 1st.
So, at home, and i told my parents, blah blahb blah, canceled my POSB ATM card, made a police report of the lost ezlink... (found out that the police database has the address of my grandparent's former house [ 10 YEARS AGO] as mine... wow) and then got ready for piano lesson...
And so on the way to lesson, my grandma called and said a person came to return my wallet (thanks to the appointment cardS that has my address all printed on them). And was so damn glad...
N got home, which is now. and took a good look at my wallet. OMFG! it was raped! Apparently, ppl's hands tend to get attracted to money, AND invisible money. somehow, they'll sniff it out.
yes, i admit i've got a $50 note in my wallet. hidden.
and also, they like to ransack the whole wallet. Leaving OBVIOUS signs that my wallet has been raped. All the cards i took weeks to put properly are put in bunches at different compartments... and obviously the $$$'s all gone. _(&*@(^&^)_
And now my downstairs neighbour decides to smoke and harm my health.
Ok, it's not tat i am ungrateful the person didn't just take my wallet away forever ( considering t's like MYUK and NEW). But, come on, show some PRIVACY... and respect ?! Not that i expect the money would still be there, but really, going through the whole wallet and NOT putting the cards back to the original places? or at least somehow put it nicely instead of in bunches eveywhere...
Really one of a kind.
The most important thing is that i 've got my wallet back, and is really happy and grateul, but it really pissed me off as well. As the say goes, " if it happens once, it will never happen a second time, but if it happens a second time, there will be a third"
Don't worry, there won't be a second time!
Friday, February 1, 2008
I AM HAPPY (:
today's class breakfast! and all of us brought delicious FOOD
MMMMMMmmmmmm...
sprinkly fairybread
3 litres of milk
containers of cookies
big container of jelly
sushi
cake rolls
a huge birthday brownie cake
and we celebrated january and february babies! haha
I was so full i couldn't eat during lunch!. and was only hungry at dinner
this marks a good beginning for our class.
Violin concerto in E major , 1st movement by JS Bach is nice.
Now, go google for it, play it on NERO Smartstart and enjoy the imaginery complimentary free chocolate milkshake.
MILK+ BROWNIE = NICE
today's class breakfast! and all of us brought delicious FOOD
MMMMMMmmmmmm...
sprinkly fairybread
3 litres of milk
containers of cookies
big container of jelly
sushi
cake rolls
a huge birthday brownie cake
and we celebrated january and february babies! haha
I was so full i couldn't eat during lunch!. and was only hungry at dinner
this marks a good beginning for our class.
Violin concerto in E major , 1st movement by JS Bach is nice.
Now, go google for it, play it on NERO Smartstart and enjoy the imaginery complimentary free chocolate milkshake.
MILK+ BROWNIE = NICE
Sunday, January 27, 2008
TODAY IS A FUN DAY!
smiles with a wide grin on my face.
Sunday, nice day, except we had rehearsals for some performance in march.
Look FAR FAR fAR away and u'll see march. really.so we prac prac prac, and then it was rest time! not that we needed it anyway, just wanted it XP
SO, we decided to prank call! haha *oops, so evil* but to our friends only larh.
and one was particularly funny and here goes the conversation
(R stands for recipent- the rest's our letterhead names, all calls on loud speaker)
J: ELLO! is this ali?! (in loud bomming voice)
R: Sorry, hello?
J: IS THIS ALI?
( D burst out laughing in the distant)
R: you are D's friend
J: who's D? I don't know D, i only want to find Ali!!
( SW n M snickering, n trying not to burst)
R: you are D's friend lah!
J: Who's D? Don't any how ok! Wait arh wait arh! ( changes voice to high pitched) hello? i am SW arh (SW swearing silently with gestures)Where's ali?
( passes phone to D)
D: Hello? Ali? I am J YUE
R: You are D lah!
D: who's D? who's D? i want to find Ali ok! Don't mess with me ok!
(passes phone back to J)
J: (in high pitched voice) hello? ALI?? (suddenly into booming voice) What's up man!) (back to high pitched voice) sorry sorry, where's ali?
R: No ali! ------ (hangs)
oh man so funny! there's another one too
D: hello? i am erek from Bread Talk customer service. Can I give a survey?
R: Mm, okay.
D: So how often do you eat bread from BT? Once a week?
R: Mm, once a week, yea
D: So do you like BT's bread?
R: Mm, ok
D: Which one do u go more often? BT or Four leaves?
R: Mm, four leaves
D: oh, so which one do you like more?
R: Four leaves
D: FOUR LEAVES?! (in angry voice) ok, nevermind. Can I have your school and age please? You are still in school right?
R: Mm, is that necessary?
D: yea, because we are having a lucky draw, which is 9 million dollars.
R: Oh okay, Nanyang
D: You are from nanyang girls? (makes weird wounds on background) excuse me, acn you hear me?
R: huh? yea
D: (makes funny sound again) So you are from Nanyang girls high? What's that funny sound in your background?
R: huh?
D: (makes even weirder noise) What's that sound?
R: huh?
D: WHAT"S YOUR PROB (at that time, R hangs) LEM MAN!!
HAHA omg so funny! still, i think i'd gonna tell that person who did the BT survey (: she's my friend! haha. Ok, shall end here le
smiles with a wide grin on my face.
Sunday, nice day, except we had rehearsals for some performance in march.
Look FAR FAR fAR away and u'll see march. really.so we prac prac prac, and then it was rest time! not that we needed it anyway, just wanted it XP
SO, we decided to prank call! haha *oops, so evil* but to our friends only larh.
and one was particularly funny and here goes the conversation
(R stands for recipent- the rest's our letterhead names, all calls on loud speaker)
J: ELLO! is this ali?! (in loud bomming voice)
R: Sorry, hello?
J: IS THIS ALI?
( D burst out laughing in the distant)
R: you are D's friend
J: who's D? I don't know D, i only want to find Ali!!
( SW n M snickering, n trying not to burst)
R: you are D's friend lah!
J: Who's D? Don't any how ok! Wait arh wait arh! ( changes voice to high pitched) hello? i am SW arh (SW swearing silently with gestures)Where's ali?
( passes phone to D)
D: Hello? Ali? I am J YUE
R: You are D lah!
D: who's D? who's D? i want to find Ali ok! Don't mess with me ok!
(passes phone back to J)
J: (in high pitched voice) hello? ALI?? (suddenly into booming voice) What's up man!) (back to high pitched voice) sorry sorry, where's ali?
R: No ali! ------ (hangs)
oh man so funny! there's another one too
D: hello? i am erek from Bread Talk customer service. Can I give a survey?
R: Mm, okay.
D: So how often do you eat bread from BT? Once a week?
R: Mm, once a week, yea
D: So do you like BT's bread?
R: Mm, ok
D: Which one do u go more often? BT or Four leaves?
R: Mm, four leaves
D: oh, so which one do you like more?
R: Four leaves
D: FOUR LEAVES?! (in angry voice) ok, nevermind. Can I have your school and age please? You are still in school right?
R: Mm, is that necessary?
D: yea, because we are having a lucky draw, which is 9 million dollars.
R: Oh okay, Nanyang
D: You are from nanyang girls? (makes weird wounds on background) excuse me, acn you hear me?
R: huh? yea
D: (makes funny sound again) So you are from Nanyang girls high? What's that funny sound in your background?
R: huh?
D: (makes even weirder noise) What's that sound?
R: huh?
D: WHAT"S YOUR PROB (at that time, R hangs) LEM MAN!!
HAHA omg so funny! still, i think i'd gonna tell that person who did the BT survey (: she's my friend! haha. Ok, shall end here le
Thursday, January 24, 2008
OMG!!!
LA proposal
Chem proposal
physics proposal
So many things to do, so little time!
gasps. chokes. dies. died
it's just start of sec 3 lo... and tons of things falls down on me like... PLop!
on the other hand, I LOVE 305!~ yayness
today's co was crap. i went for health checkup (SO DAMN CHEATED CAN... they ask a few qns, and $15 gone! GONE!) n so went to co late. and immediately, i was made to play yq...
i... don't... wanna... play....
anyway, after tat, cherie congrated me that i was pro.. .cosi just came n immediately play like crazy :P oops. tmr's section dinner! looking forward!
And some funny sticks thinggo, which doesn't look anything like drumsticks- slapsticks(added on 30/8/08: oops i meant conga sticks :P slapsticks are real hard)- as in literally, u pick it up, and can slap someone (: how nice. I M USING THAT! and nice cool funnily shaped snaredrum sticks! FINALLY! they're IMPORTED FROM AMERICA~ oo lah! haha... ok, shall stop here!
LA proposal
Chem proposal
physics proposal
So many things to do, so little time!
gasps. chokes. dies. died
it's just start of sec 3 lo... and tons of things falls down on me like... PLop!
on the other hand, I LOVE 305!~ yayness
today's co was crap. i went for health checkup (SO DAMN CHEATED CAN... they ask a few qns, and $15 gone! GONE!) n so went to co late. and immediately, i was made to play yq...
i... don't... wanna... play....
anyway, after tat, cherie congrated me that i was pro.. .cosi just came n immediately play like crazy :P oops. tmr's section dinner! looking forward!
And some funny sticks thinggo, which doesn't look anything like drumsticks- slapsticks(added on 30/8/08: oops i meant conga sticks :P slapsticks are real hard)- as in literally, u pick it up, and can slap someone (: how nice. I M USING THAT! and nice cool funnily shaped snaredrum sticks! FINALLY! they're IMPORTED FROM AMERICA~ oo lah! haha... ok, shall stop here!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Welcome
HI!
i have decided to create a NEW blog... put away all the unhappy things behind! start all over again! and achieve better results in relationships with friends.
What a happy day (though there is evidently a whole pile of homework in front of me *stares at homework*) For that, I must really thank a person ( cos i really didn't think of creating a new public blog, and don't think i would want to anyway) and that person is......
*drum rolls*
rebekah!
haha... i hope i will love 305 lots more and will get to know good friends that lasts.
wendy
P.S. btw, i don't think i will be changing my template... cos i don't really know how to, this new blog setting is really confusing me up XD
i have decided to create a NEW blog... put away all the unhappy things behind! start all over again! and achieve better results in relationships with friends.
What a happy day (though there is evidently a whole pile of homework in front of me *stares at homework*) For that, I must really thank a person ( cos i really didn't think of creating a new public blog, and don't think i would want to anyway) and that person is......
*drum rolls*
rebekah!
haha... i hope i will love 305 lots more and will get to know good friends that lasts.
wendy
P.S. btw, i don't think i will be changing my template... cos i don't really know how to, this new blog setting is really confusing me up XD
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